.Sunday, September 28, 2008 ' 21:30 Y
the pt's relative reali sucked my blood 2day. i m busy enough n they kept coming to mi telling mi shit things. wao lao.... he is nt allowed to get dwn the bed n the wife kept askin whther he can go toilet. wth, ytd just becoz he sat up for dinner, he is having terrible headache. nv learnt their lessons. keep asking mi to col doc. giving the bedpan is all i can do. the communication wft them is a barrier.
when the doc arrived, they bombard the doc, saying he cant pass motion can go toilet. asked 3 times la. the doc din flare but instead he raised his voice at mi coz i passed the message for the 4th time. lolx. funny la. wth. sucking my blood for the whole morning. dancing wft his EVD n urine measurement + his BO business. its natural to BNO for 3days becoz he is nt consuming any food. this is my 1st time raising my voice to the relative la. i reali reali damm pissed.
2day is sun, yt i m busy. NGT feeding delayed becoz of asipration, brannular tissued, IVs, medication nt supplied. i don noe hw to chew my food. i took 5mins or maybe less den 10mins to have my meals daily. i m being trained to do that.
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.Friday, September 26, 2008 ' 16:14 Y
wat's the feeling to be attached to some1, n then seperated wft him. wil the relationship be strong to face this obstacle.
i m thinking, thinking of wat shld be the best ans for myself.
being given a status izzit tat impt? or shld just go ahead wft ur feelings n find the ans for urself? well, it might turn out unexpectedly? good? bad? give it a try, or dare nt to try?
i m half prepared but cant move on. just pausing there. mayb scared! IDK!
can u imagine i m taking my "deepavali' PH already.... its onli sept n i left wft 2 mre PH til end yr. she'd forcing every1 to take PH becoz census is low. AL, PH, DO.... where's the mood?
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.Thursday, September 25, 2008 ' 11:20 Y
everything is a mistake. a trip which is supposed to be a start of everything but likewise. saying harsh words which is truely wat u meant or just at a fit if anger? i think best is nt to hurt anyone if we r nt togeher. i m sure things tat r said can not be taken back. so leave it as it is. i had already bring ur confident lvl to the brim. to pick it up, it reali takes time.
come to think of it, i m finding excuses for myself. just becoz of 1 thing, n i made a conclusion. its late to reflect nw. i haf vomited my wrds n hw u expect mi to swallow it back!
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