.Wednesday, April 30, 2008 ' 20:45 Y
2day i brought my niece out. intend to go to pasir ris downtown east to play the explorer kid thing. but don wan wat shit, it was closed. DISAPPOINTMENT! majority of the games there were closed. i tot wild wild wet was the same. anyway, i cld c disppointment n SIANZ look on her. can c but cant touch! thinking hard where do they have places for kids! we went to white sand n TM to walk. the onli thing she cld play was the $1 car thingy. she played 3 diff machine. lolx. tat the onli thing we cld make her happy. mimi bought her a pair of puma shoes. the pair of addias we bought for her was too small. she bearly wore it. kids legs grow damm fast! i m unhappy. i shld haf serve the net to check n shldnt take things for granted. probably bring her for a swim after she has recover frm flu.
just received a col frm a SN. was asked whether i m interested to wrk PCA 2nit n 2ml. i was kin but nite shift!!! all alone. rejected the offer. m i bad? i think they reali nid help.
PS: the rain 2day causes the weather to be mre humid.
just received a col frm a SN. was asked whether i m interested to wrk PCA 2nit n 2ml. i was kin but nite shift!!! all alone. rejected the offer. m i bad? i think they reali nid help.
PS: the rain 2day causes the weather to be mre humid.
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. ' 00:01 Y
i force myself to wake up. had an appointment wft the HR at 10am. lucky i left hse early, oresle i will be late becoz there is no parking. wth! cars r waiting for lots. the HR guy was abit pissed. nt mi obviously. he got off on the wrong side of the bed. he instructed mi to bring my bank statement on my 1st day of wrk. i just randomly ans him 'i had just printed during my attachment period, must i stil give'... "JUST DO IT".... FINE!!!! i mumbled behind him. for nth get this attitude frm u in the morning. he brought mi to tried out my uniform. the place is so kampong style.
i got my uniform finally. 3 dresses n 1 pant suit. the pants is high waist la. i asked the aunty got hipster anot... a real typical Aunty!!!! the weather is a killer. perspiring madly while trying out. the pants is reali nt suitable for mi.... i requested for the M size pants, but she refused. she claims tat it will be too big for mi. well, she might nv noe. my big butt can fit nicely. the dress is neither too baggy or too tight. wth... i still nid to author it.
i don noe where the hell he heard frm... he was told tt i m nt happy being posted to the ward. i chose it myself. hw can i nt be happy. i told him honesty tat though the SIS can be cranky but i m willing to be in there. he agrees wft mi. n still can say..'old ppl is like tat'. hahahahaaha... he added... 'we r concern abt ur well-being. we don wan u to be unhappy'... wow!! i find it bull shit. i heard frm senior tat they give empty promises! hack!!!
movie in the evening. i was kinda pissed when i rch n he was late. added on, the weather made mi boiled. our watch had a diff time. he claims he wasnt late. fine! lucky it was onli 5mins late, oresle i wld just go hme though i had this intention. Subway for dinner. this reminds mi of my days wft xia in subway. filling sandwhich which we had made.
"Forbidden Kingdom" for the 2nd time. no mre 3rd time... i will slp in there. recapping some funny scene.
beancurd for supper at kovan.
i got my uniform finally. 3 dresses n 1 pant suit. the pants is high waist la. i asked the aunty got hipster anot... a real typical Aunty!!!! the weather is a killer. perspiring madly while trying out. the pants is reali nt suitable for mi.... i requested for the M size pants, but she refused. she claims tat it will be too big for mi. well, she might nv noe. my big butt can fit nicely. the dress is neither too baggy or too tight. wth... i still nid to author it.
i don noe where the hell he heard frm... he was told tt i m nt happy being posted to the ward. i chose it myself. hw can i nt be happy. i told him honesty tat though the SIS can be cranky but i m willing to be in there. he agrees wft mi. n still can say..'old ppl is like tat'. hahahahaaha... he added... 'we r concern abt ur well-being. we don wan u to be unhappy'... wow!! i find it bull shit. i heard frm senior tat they give empty promises! hack!!!
movie in the evening. i was kinda pissed when i rch n he was late. added on, the weather made mi boiled. our watch had a diff time. he claims he wasnt late. fine! lucky it was onli 5mins late, oresle i wld just go hme though i had this intention. Subway for dinner. this reminds mi of my days wft xia in subway. filling sandwhich which we had made.
"Forbidden Kingdom" for the 2nd time. no mre 3rd time... i will slp in there. recapping some funny scene.
beancurd for supper at kovan.
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.Monday, April 28, 2008 ' 21:35 Y
soursop n mango freeze....
tang hoon tom yam on a hot stone!
JB trip.. branch at this sizzling resturant. the spagetti is added wft chilli sause nt tomatoe. taste awaful. n this made xia ful for the whole day. crazy... just this plates, she can tell mi she is FULL.
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. ' 21:13 Y
recolling back....
24th april.
xia n mi risked our life to JB. my mum disagree to it n ask mi to back out when it was raining heavily tat morning. we reali enjoyed ourself. toking loudly, laughing loudly like no1 business. went for massage, shopping, eating. she reali lousy. ate spagetti for branch n kept complaining she is full... i wan to eat lots of things but she is a spoiler. haha. as usual, she came back wft big bags of soft toy. she totally in love wft it after she had gotten her caterpillar frm KL. i just got myself a doggy. i bought a similar toy b4 n gave it to my ex. nw i wan it for myself. haha. we bought hme cakes frm secret receipe. 3 slices of cheese cake n 2 walnut brownies. it is worth buying. the size of it! 400Rm for her wasnt enuff. lolx. i just spent my 200RM nia. FUN!
25th april.
met xia again. went for dinner after my errands. i wasnt kin or ready for date. i wld put my love 1st. we ate 'xiao guo mian'... budget dinner at gardens market. roti john for supper. but my bro ate it be4 our food can be digested. i knew she is going to mit her dear.. so i planned movies wft him. felt bad for pushing it away. anyway, 'doomsday' was gruesome. heads flying, they roasted the body n served it to the frens, explosions of the bodies. yucks. a "wonderful" show for the night. lolx.
26th, 27th...
hme stay. dinner out. crab bee hoon at enous coffee shop was shiok. the bee hoon is soak n strong crab taste.
24th april.
xia n mi risked our life to JB. my mum disagree to it n ask mi to back out when it was raining heavily tat morning. we reali enjoyed ourself. toking loudly, laughing loudly like no1 business. went for massage, shopping, eating. she reali lousy. ate spagetti for branch n kept complaining she is full... i wan to eat lots of things but she is a spoiler. haha. as usual, she came back wft big bags of soft toy. she totally in love wft it after she had gotten her caterpillar frm KL. i just got myself a doggy. i bought a similar toy b4 n gave it to my ex. nw i wan it for myself. haha. we bought hme cakes frm secret receipe. 3 slices of cheese cake n 2 walnut brownies. it is worth buying. the size of it! 400Rm for her wasnt enuff. lolx. i just spent my 200RM nia. FUN!
25th april.
met xia again. went for dinner after my errands. i wasnt kin or ready for date. i wld put my love 1st. we ate 'xiao guo mian'... budget dinner at gardens market. roti john for supper. but my bro ate it be4 our food can be digested. i knew she is going to mit her dear.. so i planned movies wft him. felt bad for pushing it away. anyway, 'doomsday' was gruesome. heads flying, they roasted the body n served it to the frens, explosions of the bodies. yucks. a "wonderful" show for the night. lolx.
26th, 27th...
hme stay. dinner out. crab bee hoon at enous coffee shop was shiok. the bee hoon is soak n strong crab taste.
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.Thursday, April 24, 2008 ' 00:19 Y
work again. my boss is back frm holidays. i have been alternate days. tats shldnt be the way. she almost freak out when i told her i nt coming 2ml. lolx. hackz!
seriously, i have been thinking, wat kind of feelings i m having rite nw. my mind kept changing everyday. First, i m hping to be back 2gather wft him, secondly, i wan to start anew. wth... ppl mistaken tat we r still 2gather, but actually we r nt. just close friends! we just tok normally n comfortably wft each other. i just cant find a guy who i can opened up too. i find him old just like my bro. imagine dating sme1 similar to my bro age!!! eee!!! cant imagine. n he is still pursuing his diploma. thinking.... i still can leave w/o a relationship though i might be longing for 1. as i always say...'let nature take its course'.
It takes time to realise...
seriously, i have been thinking, wat kind of feelings i m having rite nw. my mind kept changing everyday. First, i m hping to be back 2gather wft him, secondly, i wan to start anew. wth... ppl mistaken tat we r still 2gather, but actually we r nt. just close friends! we just tok normally n comfortably wft each other. i just cant find a guy who i can opened up too. i find him old just like my bro. imagine dating sme1 similar to my bro age!!! eee!!! cant imagine. n he is still pursuing his diploma. thinking.... i still can leave w/o a relationship though i might be longing for 1. as i always say...'let nature take its course'.
It takes time to realise...
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.Monday, April 21, 2008 ' 21:01 Y
i nt sure whether i shld be happy or sad... i asked my mum to develop a 4R photo to a 3R size. i don haf the originals but just the photo onli. she took my wrds seriously. i told her i nid it by 2day n do it fast. wth, she developed 1 pic for $12 n it comes it sets of 4. kaoz.. it is damm ex for just 4 photos of a 3R size. n is smiliar. i reali felt heart pain. don noe to laugh or to cry. $12 leh. can eat at least 2 mcwings meal, 6plates of chicken rice. i c the pic, i feel like eating it. $12.. heart aching.... y din she col mi??? she replied: "u say u nid it by 2day"... thanks mum. but u shld haf consider it.. $12.. nt $2... omg.... my heart is bleeding..
sis colled in the morning n asked mi to mit the assis.director in the afternoon. ok.. tat was pretty rush. i onli went to wrk for 4 hrs n headed for the interview. she told mi long stry in there. i m nt interested whether she nid to help out in the ward or wat. i cant b bothered whether can she set plug after so many yrs. she just blah her way wft her stry repeatedly. i think i can even mermoise it. took abt 45mins in there wft her. but the most impt things she has to say takes onli 10mins or less... earliest to start wrk on 28april, if nt may.
sis colled in the morning n asked mi to mit the assis.director in the afternoon. ok.. tat was pretty rush. i onli went to wrk for 4 hrs n headed for the interview. she told mi long stry in there. i m nt interested whether she nid to help out in the ward or wat. i cant b bothered whether can she set plug after so many yrs. she just blah her way wft her stry repeatedly. i think i can even mermoise it. took abt 45mins in there wft her. but the most impt things she has to say takes onli 10mins or less... earliest to start wrk on 28april, if nt may.
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.Thursday, April 17, 2008 ' 23:55 Y
GENTING TRIP on 15th-17th
the trip was great. we reali enjoyed ourselves. the 1st trip wft xia n hui. 3 of us squeeze in 2single beds. so cozy. the weather there was cooling.
1st day...
we put our bags in the room, rest for awhile n started walking. we had pizza hut at abt 4pm. wasnt an ideal tea break. the pizza had too little ingredients. walked ard our hotel area n went over to the arcade side. had photo taking wft the mist air. lolx. bought calling card there. 43cent RM for 1 min col n 20cent RM for a msg. consider cheap ba. anyway, we suspected xia is eyeing on the sales guy. we went back thrice to ask abt the card stuffs. lolx. we din even noe we had walked till 8+pm. we rushed for our movie "3 kingdoms"on OSIM chair. i dozed of in the middle of the show partly becoz of the comfortable massage frm the OSIM chair. i don like the show, all the history n gruesome scene. we had ger's chat b4 slping.----3.30am.
2nd day...
breakfast for 2 person. hui n i went dwn to eat tat errrrr breakfast. so crowded la n nt mre variety. think onli the fried eggs tasted gd. smuggle 2 cakes up for xia. n wat, she din bring it out went we left the hotel.
took cable car dwn frm genting n bus to KL. wth, chi-na ppl q-ing too.. bunch of them alright. mayb due to the weather, there is no BE-do smell. reached abt 12noon.
ok... i or we did a dishonest act there. my mum had scolded mi for tat.
part1...
i bought char siew shu--total was $7.50.
i gave the man $10.50.
he returned mi $5 n i walked away w/o telling him. i knew he is going to give mi the wrong change, he's action- handling the cash box. i was thinking mayb there was a discount(craps). c'mon, i m teaching him a lesson for nt giving the rite change. by this, he will learn his mathematics.(self-consoling)
part 2...
we bought soft toy at KL shopping centre. the sales ger told us tat that the caterpillar toy has onli left wft the bigger size. the smaller size is sold out. ok lor... sold out huh, den i took the monkey toy. it is link wft the main store upstairs.
monkey cost 35. xia helped mi to bargin till 25 + other toys we bought frm her.
den we went upstairs just for curiousity, i saw the smaller ver of the caterpillar at 28rm. but she willingly to sell at 25rm. i reali like it, i asked whether can change for the money i bought. the lady boss standing at the cashier agreed immediately n ask to refund mi 10rm. we were shocked la. coz she din noe we bought it at 25rm. hahahaha. we earned 10rm for nth. we took n left the shopping centre. ok la, it is bad to do tat. i gotten scolding frm my mum. even ask mi to go for confession. lolx.
the toys were too bulky. 2 big bags of plactic bag stuffed wft our items n we carried back up to genting. dead beat after walking. 9pm reached genting. abt 1.5 hrs journey due to the stupid jam in KL.
OSMI massage chair again.... movie slot for 1130 is sold out for the massage chair. so we catched the 0130 show. "ah long"... funny movie but 1 of our chair is spoiled n cldnt get a refund. retribution i think. we slpt at 0430.
last day...
xia was supposed to be incharge in waking us up. n wat, she shouted tat it was 12noon. kaoz... we jumped up of the bed to change n faster check out. ltr for nth being charge for another stay. we tot she was kidding but her panick face tells the truth. it rained the last day. thank God tat we left the place. haha.
the trip was nonsense. late nites n early day.
the trip was great. we reali enjoyed ourselves. the 1st trip wft xia n hui. 3 of us squeeze in 2single beds. so cozy. the weather there was cooling.
1st day...
we put our bags in the room, rest for awhile n started walking. we had pizza hut at abt 4pm. wasnt an ideal tea break. the pizza had too little ingredients. walked ard our hotel area n went over to the arcade side. had photo taking wft the mist air. lolx. bought calling card there. 43cent RM for 1 min col n 20cent RM for a msg. consider cheap ba. anyway, we suspected xia is eyeing on the sales guy. we went back thrice to ask abt the card stuffs. lolx. we din even noe we had walked till 8+pm. we rushed for our movie "3 kingdoms"on OSIM chair. i dozed of in the middle of the show partly becoz of the comfortable massage frm the OSIM chair. i don like the show, all the history n gruesome scene. we had ger's chat b4 slping.----3.30am.
2nd day...
breakfast for 2 person. hui n i went dwn to eat tat errrrr breakfast. so crowded la n nt mre variety. think onli the fried eggs tasted gd. smuggle 2 cakes up for xia. n wat, she din bring it out went we left the hotel.
took cable car dwn frm genting n bus to KL. wth, chi-na ppl q-ing too.. bunch of them alright. mayb due to the weather, there is no BE-do smell. reached abt 12noon.
ok... i or we did a dishonest act there. my mum had scolded mi for tat.
part1...
i bought char siew shu--total was $7.50.
i gave the man $10.50.
he returned mi $5 n i walked away w/o telling him. i knew he is going to give mi the wrong change, he's action- handling the cash box. i was thinking mayb there was a discount(craps). c'mon, i m teaching him a lesson for nt giving the rite change. by this, he will learn his mathematics.(self-consoling)
part 2...
we bought soft toy at KL shopping centre. the sales ger told us tat that the caterpillar toy has onli left wft the bigger size. the smaller size is sold out. ok lor... sold out huh, den i took the monkey toy. it is link wft the main store upstairs.
monkey cost 35. xia helped mi to bargin till 25 + other toys we bought frm her.
den we went upstairs just for curiousity, i saw the smaller ver of the caterpillar at 28rm. but she willingly to sell at 25rm. i reali like it, i asked whether can change for the money i bought. the lady boss standing at the cashier agreed immediately n ask to refund mi 10rm. we were shocked la. coz she din noe we bought it at 25rm. hahahaha. we earned 10rm for nth. we took n left the shopping centre. ok la, it is bad to do tat. i gotten scolding frm my mum. even ask mi to go for confession. lolx.
the toys were too bulky. 2 big bags of plactic bag stuffed wft our items n we carried back up to genting. dead beat after walking. 9pm reached genting. abt 1.5 hrs journey due to the stupid jam in KL.
OSMI massage chair again.... movie slot for 1130 is sold out for the massage chair. so we catched the 0130 show. "ah long"... funny movie but 1 of our chair is spoiled n cldnt get a refund. retribution i think. we slpt at 0430.
last day...
xia was supposed to be incharge in waking us up. n wat, she shouted tat it was 12noon. kaoz... we jumped up of the bed to change n faster check out. ltr for nth being charge for another stay. we tot she was kidding but her panick face tells the truth. it rained the last day. thank God tat we left the place. haha.
the trip was nonsense. late nites n early day.
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.Sunday, April 13, 2008 ' 23:49 Y
i was waken up by the noise in the living room. wth, shouting. she scolded him for being a liar. becoz of $... he has gotten mre but he just told her he had abit. fuck xia. i reali din wan to tok to him. i heard the quarrel in the room. my tears just rolled dwn. i just find it injustice for her after what she had done for the family. he is just bringing in troubles for her to clear. i just hate it. he is a gd daddy but nt a gd husband. n y must they bring the children in to the story! ok, i know she wants to tel mi her problems... but the mre u know something, the mre troubled i m. i just don wan to be in the pic. i heard her telling mi the stry, i just hate him. i don understand y must he do tat. doesnt he knows wat is GRATITUDE! afterall she is ur wife. seriously, i hate guys being like this. some1 is slogging for u n yt u r enjoying ur life. c'mon, ur frens r shit. ur family is the 1 tat is going thru all the shit stuff wft u. dont u wan them to enjoy life for once! instead of spending ur money on them. wth! damm it!
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.Wednesday, April 09, 2008 ' 11:09 Y
i feeling dwn after reading the sms. tt's nt wat i meant. i admit i m irresponsible. kept changing time. i reali sick n tired of wrking. the routine job i have been doing everyday. u knew i was bored too, at least u r sensitive to notice it. i m staying becoz i ought mre wan to show u i m nt irresponsible by leaving like this. i hpe that i can clear the wrk i have been doing n leave. i can always just leave w/o caring. afterall, i m a part timer.
partly i feel obligated to u. just becoz of the extra cash u given mi for my trip. i don wan to show u tt i m a ungrateful person. sometimes i having thoughts of wrking of u coz of this. aiya... i just think tat she is a nice person, n i shldnt say NO to her. saying NO is so difficult. i don wan her to think tt i m the same as her past PA. so lazy, n taking ADVANTAGE of her.. which i M nt. i m showing my upmost sincere in wrking for her.
sometimes i think i m giving FOR NOTHING stress to myself... simple shit stuff tat can be solved but i just kept thinking too much. wth. this is nt mi!!! i don have a firm mind. damm it.
anyway, i find tat i shld be self centred. the BEST solution.
partly i feel obligated to u. just becoz of the extra cash u given mi for my trip. i don wan to show u tt i m a ungrateful person. sometimes i having thoughts of wrking of u coz of this. aiya... i just think tat she is a nice person, n i shldnt say NO to her. saying NO is so difficult. i don wan her to think tt i m the same as her past PA. so lazy, n taking ADVANTAGE of her.. which i M nt. i m showing my upmost sincere in wrking for her.
sometimes i think i m giving FOR NOTHING stress to myself... simple shit stuff tat can be solved but i just kept thinking too much. wth. this is nt mi!!! i don have a firm mind. damm it.
anyway, i find tat i shld be self centred. the BEST solution.
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.Thursday, April 03, 2008 ' 01:08 Y
finally caught STEP UP 2 wft des. nice movies. he oso agrees wft it though he did nt watch part 1. no link too la. i was surprised to find out tat paying cash cost more den paying by nets. so weird. therefore, i settle my movie payment by nets. it enjoys the same benefit as UOB visa. went hme after tat n met yq... he is leaving to thailand to wrk. chatted at the void deck n headed hme.
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.Wednesday, April 02, 2008 ' 00:22 Y
my boss had a talk wft mi regarding wrking wft her. this is the 1st time we reali sat dwn n tok the terms. come to think of it, it is no diff frm wat hosp is paying. just tat i get to wrk 5 days a wk n get to share her commission. after 2 wks break n back to wrk, i find this job is boring. so routine, no life... just PAPER n PAPER. wrking this job doesnt nid a diploma cert. even aunty oso can wrk. so i might as well nt waste my 3 yrs of studies. CONGRATS to myself for thinking it thru. mind is MADE up. sis of the ward is looking for mi. lolx. i will nt disappoint her.
i m just avoiding the stress i m facing in future. i cant c myself. probably i m thinking too much. but i m afraid!!! i don wan to give myself stress. i just hate it. be4 i can experience it, i m thinking it day n night. lolx.
i m just avoiding the stress i m facing in future. i cant c myself. probably i m thinking too much. but i m afraid!!! i don wan to give myself stress. i just hate it. be4 i can experience it, i m thinking it day n night. lolx.
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