i feeling dwn after reading the sms. tt's nt wat i meant. i admit i m irresponsible. kept changing time. i reali sick n tired of wrking. the routine job i have been doing everyday. u knew i was bored too, at least u r sensitive to notice it. i m staying becoz i ought mre wan to show u i m nt irresponsible by leaving like this. i hpe that i can clear the wrk i have been doing n leave. i can always just leave w/o caring. afterall, i m a part timer.
partly i feel obligated to u. just becoz of the extra cash u given mi for my trip. i don wan to show u tt i m a ungrateful person. sometimes i having thoughts of wrking of u coz of this.
aiya... i just think tat she is a nice person, n i shldnt say NO to her. saying NO is so difficult. i don wan her to think tt i m the same as her past PA. so lazy, n taking ADVANTAGE of her.. which i M nt. i m showing my upmost sincere in wrking for her.
sometimes i think i m giving FOR NOTHING stress to myself... simple shit stuff tat can be solved but i just kept thinking too much. wth. this is nt mi!!! i don have a firm mind. damm it.
anyway, i find tat i shld be self centred. the BEST solution.
Speaking the Truth