for the time being

NEW YEAR 2009

2009-01-16T09:08:00.001+08:00

trip to hk. a different experience this time round. a christmas cum new yr feel there. haha.

1) photo wft my princess

2) she super duper happy, cheeky face when the plane landed in hk.

3) the MUST TRY thing...

roast pork, goose n duck.

4) had steamboat at fren's hse. their apartment = to our 3 rm flat. is cold in the hse w/o aircon. partly she lives near the sea n its COLD in hk!!! im wearing socks n sweater in the hse!!!!

5)disneyland on NEW yr's eve... had countdown there till 0030. a diff feel. quite a number of new theme built up. but i still njoy japan's disney. hahaa!

becoz of the season, there's nt much to shop. din shop dead there. that's the saddest thing. n yet i can spend S$700 excluding makan. just cant understand hw $ just disappeared. my niece reali walked wft us till 01oohrs every night. even dosed off when walking. she is nt allow to be carried la. lolx.

2008-11-25T00:10:00.002+08:00

things haven been going smoothly for mi. might b a court case!(cross finger)
she is fine, n for home. the next moment collapsed in the toilet. totally shock to me. just spoken to her an hr ago n popp... she's gone.

BP low n the idiot man send it to our ward. siao la.. CCU la... nt us. anyway, he transited n sent up immediately. crazy freaks la! i m nt prepared for another code for consective 1 wk.

falling sick agin. hw to recover? thks to all them hu cough directly at my face when im giving IVs... hw much "air" i had breathe frm them.

finally got myself a new phone... nt the model i like actually but just nid a phone to survive. im still enjoying student benefits... cant believe it la. hahahaha!

2008-11-14T22:47:00.002+08:00

im representing my ward to take photographs. don noe whether izzit a gd thing? scared they r jealous abt mi being chosen. just don wan any conflicts. i got no motive, just wan to wrk n get out of the place after experience. n 1 shit thing... i got to come back during my off day. nonsense la. 2ml must go tell sis abt this nonsense tat she had planned.

hmm... hpefully things are going smoothly. like the way it is nw or its improving, it will be great. hahaha!

2008-11-13T20:34:00.002+08:00

its so troublesome to get mc. still must go back to c the RMO to endorse the mc. n wat, they say my mc is overdue. wth! cant key into the com. anyway, my sis saw the mc, its up to the HR. ma fan!

back to wrk. tired, lazy, reluctant to wrk. after the morning med, there's the next round of afternoon med. its like whole day sticking onto the IMR, haven got the chance to look at the case notes or changes. i waiting for pay rise la. hping to get mre after my sis had submitted the appraisal.

its going to be DECEMBER!

2008-11-07T11:14:00.002+08:00

my voice is gone. cant even utter a wrd out. feel like take MC but 2day in charge is gd. infact all colleagues are gd to wrk wft except for 1 mayb. haha... but i m still able to get out of the bed, so stil quite fit for wrk.

2008-10-31T15:38:00.004+08:00

i learning to be strong n confident in my skills.

part 1

last wk, this old man nearly coded in the xray department. n i was the onli 1 there. the radiographer don not anything, she kept insisting the pt can go for CT scan. wth, Saturation is dropping la. 73%, kept coughing. chesty. i almost stood there n cry. called my in charge back in the ward, she tot mi wat to do. i noe i must do suctioning but the fact tat i don dare to do. but i manage in the end. seriously, he almost coded. i will die standing if it reali happened.

part 2

going out duty soon. answered the last col bell of the day, din realise she freak mi off. she said some1 is looking at her n ask mi to chase 'it' off... WTH!!!! my hair stand la. acting calm by asking her to hold on, n asked my in charge to handle. kaoz.... they moved her to another bed. i din dare to walk in. lolx.

part 3

i reali hate suctioning. when ward is too busy, i reali cant ask any1 to help or supervise mi la. just DO it myself la. abit useless though but reali no guts.

2day is another super busy day. din had the time to pee, drink or sit. no matter hw busy, i will still eat but 2day reali no time to eat. i understand when some1 is reali busy, this is the situation. u rather control ur bladder, save the time walking to the toilet n used it to do ur wrk.
just walking briskly for the whole morning serving med, stat dose, do changes, OT cases. in fact all of us is busy la. time passes fast. the IVs is killing mi especially in the morning. n hate most when brannular is blocked. shit!

2008-10-21T17:34:00.002+08:00

i have been going hme late frm wrk lately. admission kept flowing in n my 'dear' sis cut staffing. she is nuts la. knowing is mon n still cut dwn staff. we had 11pt on sun, we done 8 admission on mon afternoon, n 7 admission this morning. 1 time came 2 admission. wao lao, hu can handle this nonsense. n operation is another hr times. siao la!

but life is challenging wft this kind of nonsense. it keeps my heart palpitating.

i love fiery BBq chix

THAT"S LIFE

2008-10-17T20:02:00.004+08:00

i m doing junior wrk. its been awhile since i ever did tat. n i m practically answering the call bells. i m at the losing end la, dr's round, if i m there, i supposed to follow. den left my junior wrk nt done.

i hate coll bells. sometimes is just un-ncessary stuff.

i tot doin junior can avoid them frm colling mi after wrk. wth, col kept coming in.

my sis very GD. almost send mi to die. she doesnt wan to assist him to off drain. ask mi to do. reason: she has a bad experiencing wft him. wth... when i m in there, she doing everything la. in the 1st place ask mi to assist him n her ass is there.

2008-10-15T23:22:00.002+08:00

isnt gd to find some1 u can tok to anything under the sun. those personal, reali personal stuff. even by telling her, u wont b embarassed. sharing n exchanging experiences, ideas. haha.. can be quite funny but when saying, there's no barrier.

i m living in a diff time frm him. my wrking time doesnt match his especially when i m doing night duties. tough challenge. 12hrs msg n reply. lolx. its weird la. but wat to do!

2008-10-13T21:39:00.002+08:00

we had 3 falls in a wk. my colleagues said, it is followed by 3 to complete a cycle. TRUE enough.

1st
this old lady is confused. she get up in the middle of the nite wanting to pass urine despite having a urine catether. found on the floor. scan shows #.

2nd
hw can a stroke pt even fall wft cot side up n wife as watcher?

3rd
he sat on the comode, the next moment found lying on the floor.

OMEN!

this old lady made me stretch my muscle when i ran to her, saw her siting at the edge of the bed side. wth. don noe whether is she reali confused? she can complain to the doc tat we nurse her at the corridor. n i m having hard time conversing wft her in cantonese. hahaha. at least she understands. lucky my last nite, she was soundly asleep. BUT....

my last nite was a SHIT nite. kept cleaning n changing diapers. n wat.. this pt played wft his shit. gross!
most pt having fever. the best thing i can do is to freeze the room. hahaha. guess wat, they are afebrile. hahahahahaha!

actually most importantly is hu u r wrking wft. a gd team can reali make u end wrk on time wft all ur things properly done. i had a few pt during my last nite compared to previous but i went hme at 8am. thanks goodness i m wrking wft her for the last nite. i just don noe y we r busy when wrking wft her when cases r actually light.

i hate doing nite. time passes slow n i m eating alot in the nite to keep awake. having urine retention coz i m afraid to use the toilet. i don even look at the mirrors in the nite. REFLECtION!!!!

2008-10-09T23:00:00.002+08:00

i going on night duty again. i hate to do night. tired, lack of staff n can be busy at times. argh! n sis had the intention to be us in charge during nite. wth, we r onli few months old, nt ready, stable to take control of things. brainless freak!

been watching movies lately. 'connected, all boys love marylane, eagle eye, my best fren ger.' hmm... thinking hard whether to change my status. or be single is the best? hahaha. anyway, he just entered army. probably be mre MAN n i wil like it. hahahaha.

2008-09-28T21:30:00.002+08:00

the pt's relative reali sucked my blood 2day. i m busy enough n they kept coming to mi telling mi shit things. wao lao.... he is nt allowed to get dwn the bed n the wife kept askin whther he can go toilet. wth, ytd just becoz he sat up for dinner, he is having terrible headache. nv learnt their lessons. keep asking mi to col doc. giving the bedpan is all i can do. the communication wft them is a barrier.

when the doc arrived, they bombard the doc, saying he cant pass motion can go toilet. asked 3 times la. the doc din flare but instead he raised his voice at mi coz i passed the message for the 4th time. lolx. funny la. wth. sucking my blood for the whole morning. dancing wft his EVD n urine measurement + his BO business. its natural to BNO for 3days becoz he is nt consuming any food. this is my 1st time raising my voice to the relative la. i reali reali damm pissed.

2day is sun, yt i m busy. NGT feeding delayed becoz of asipration, brannular tissued, IVs, medication nt supplied. i don noe hw to chew my food. i took 5mins or maybe less den 10mins to have my meals daily. i m being trained to do that.

2008-09-26T16:14:00.002+08:00

wat's the feeling to be attached to some1, n then seperated wft him. wil the relationship be strong to face this obstacle.
i m thinking, thinking of wat shld be the best ans for myself.
being given a status izzit tat impt? or shld just go ahead wft ur feelings n find the ans for urself? well, it might turn out unexpectedly? good? bad? give it a try, or dare nt to try?
i m half prepared but cant move on. just pausing there. mayb scared! IDK!

can u imagine i m taking my "deepavali' PH already.... its onli sept n i left wft 2 mre PH til end yr. she'd forcing every1 to take PH becoz census is low. AL, PH, DO.... where's the mood?

2008-09-25T11:20:00.002+08:00

everything is a mistake. a trip which is supposed to be a start of everything but likewise. saying harsh words which is truely wat u meant or just at a fit if anger? i think best is nt to hurt anyone if we r nt togeher. i m sure things tat r said can not be taken back. so leave it as it is. i had already bring ur confident lvl to the brim. to pick it up, it reali takes time.

come to think of it, i m finding excuses for myself. just becoz of 1 thing, n i made a conclusion. its late to reflect nw. i haf vomited my wrds n hw u expect mi to swallow it back!

2008-08-29T11:23:00.002+08:00

i m super happy getting a laptop of my own. haha. its abit rush to make decision on the spot but thought of the crowd on sunday, i had no choice. there this 'suzuki' brand. nv heard it b4!!! is super cheap, spec is equally gd as others, just tat my XP doesnt support it. or mayb the guy don noe hw to promote it.

looking at my desk nw, having 2 laptop side by side... argh!!! its a waste to get a new wan when the old is perfectly fine. just tat it is slow. haiz.... $ just come n go!

'forgetting sarah marshall'... M18... dirty jokes tat makes the show funny. i was freezing in there or my legs r frozen. lolx. n i fell all becoz of an idiot who sat there, glued to his hp n nt wantin to leave the cinema.

2008-08-25T22:58:00.002+08:00

gotten back to wrk after 1 wk off break. it was "shiok" to have tat break. lazying ard everyday. eat, slp, surfing net like a bum. driving ard like a chauffeur. late nights movies, supper mostly every night. i reali njoy this kind of life. hahaha. don nid to look at ppl's expression n attitude. just isolating everyday. haha...

next AL coming up. hmm... got to make use of the 1wk. probably go speed dating. hahahahahaha! wonder vell or min is attached? germs sure want to go. we can go together.(craps) lolx.

2008-08-24T14:13:00.002+08:00

just read the sunday times.
"Mr Frights"
toking about ladies ideal partner n y they r single still... haha. quite true to wat they say. shallow? going on dutch on 1st date? chivalry is a display of security? during courtship, they wld put on their best behaviour, but in a relationship, they reveal their true colours. lolx.

"4bia" movie reali freak mi out. the sound effects n the anticipation made mi covered both ears n eyes. lolx. it will be mre frightening if i had catch this movie wft germs. hmm.. oh ya, she nw short hair so it wont be tat shocking. hahahaa.
"death race"... i like the plot of the show la. boring at the begin wft all the intro n stuff but the middle is thrilling. abit gruesome but the racing is nice.

The Past that will nv be erased

2008-08-20T21:51:00.004+08:00

she neglected n left her children when they were young. nw she is admited to the hospital, none came to c her. her sisters took her past out n scolded her. all she did was kept quite. i felt pitiful for her. they thinks she deserved it. will she feel Repent?

this afternoon we went to the hospital n saw her lying in an awkward position.. 1st thing came to my mind is "wat are all the nurses doing? Blind?" y cant they bother to put her back in alignment. i went to do it myself. nt trying to be noble, is just wanting to make her feel comfortable. she is begging to go hme. but no1 will look after her upon discharge. another fall will endanger her life. ?stroke. her left hand is weak, cant be straighten. i tried pulling. kinda stiff.

is this retribution of wat she had done? i just cant understand y a lady choses her life to be this state when she has a happy family she cld live wft!

2008-08-19T15:54:00.002+08:00

love, wx,mi

i so reluctant to go for annual leave. but the balance 5 days don noe wan to take for which month. so my sis just put mi AL w/o telling mi before hand. Fine lor! accept her plan.

my parents kinda pissed off. y must i always listen to her? y cant i say "No" to her plans... lol...

"wat to do"... still new. don be defiant n step on her tail. i just wan a peaceful life.

2008-08-12T21:25:00.002+08:00

marvellous!

splendid!
the roses are nice. Thks! but if it was hand made, it wld be even better.

the NDP was wonderful. the firewrks n black knights especially! i enjoyed these 2 onli. it rain half way the show. lucky the gov is gd enuff to supply raincoat. though its plastic n can be torn easily, it came to help. super hot wearing it but hu cares.

my sec fren bdae falls on 08-08-08... nice day to celebrate. but i forgotten to wish her. lolx. nt to late to wish her at her chalet on national day. hahaha!

2008-08-08T19:52:00.002+08:00

i m in love wft the song "Fall For u" by secondhand serenade. the lyrics is meaningful. ah!!!!! NICE la. waiting for time to pass n get out of the hse.

NDP tml... i m going! goodies bags??? looking forward to tat, firewrks n jet fighter planes. doubt other shows i wont b interested. who is representing sg to sing this yr?

2008-08-06T22:34:00.004+08:00

i was dressed up like this. laughing stock to my ward.
they put make up for mi smre. like opera!

voucher for acting like a clown!

Nurses' Day gift. Sponored by.......

Happy Nurses' Day

2008-08-01T22:29:00.002+08:00

our hosp gave 5 present. all is sponsor by a company. 1 auntie handbag, auntie comestic pouch, skin friming lotion n baby towel....

ytd we had performance. wat impersonate some1 in the 50s-60s. guess wat... sis did a last min thing. called mi in the morning n ask whether can be her model. kaoz.. personally called mi. hw to REJECT. she dressed mi up like a "china in rural(don noe the spelling) village", wft make up, lip stick... wao lao.. my face reali thrown into the big sea la. acting like a fool. but nt too bad, got $100 voucher for participating... hahahahahaha. i tot was CASH... gd experienced for being a clown. joke of my ward for the yr.

till nw, i don noe hw to differentiate who is real to u. 1 moment they r gd to this person, the next, they were toking bad about her. wth! so confusing. NICE listening but wldnt wan to give my opinion.

mixed feeling. i m afraid i don have the freedom i wan. n the commitment i must ford out. i m scared to fall too deep. n the disappointment i get. too bad, u r nt part of my blood vessels. m i hard to PLEASE????
no hope=no disappointment!

2008-07-14T23:32:00.002+08:00

when she is free, u r nt. send all those msg tat pissed her off. sme part of the msg reali pissed her off. hard to please but u don grab the rite time.

i reali miss the kum xia ah ma.. she is cute la. she doesnt want to trouble us but she's at risk for fall. she doesnt press the bell n get up on her own... she hasnt passed motion for 4 days, n kept repeating to the nurses she sees. hahaha. so cute. kum xia missy... kum xia!!! always kum xia. ask her press cal bell, she oso kum xia. hahaha.

2008-07-07T11:57:00.003+08:00

heard of creutzfeldt-Jakob diease? hw did it happen? symptoms?
i had almost encountered another code. lucky it wasnt for active code. BP n SAo2 suddenly dropped despite of the increase of oxygen. i hate this thing to happen during my shift n it was my team. i shld have seen mre of this during student times. at least i m prepared n knows wat's the next step.

the next moment another pt irritates mi. the surgery had already been explained to him n last min tel mi he doesnt want the OP. "HUH" was my 1st response. wth...

i m going on nite shift. tat's pretty fast. more discharges less admission!

2008-06-27T15:17:00.003+08:00

my 1st code blue!!!!

i cross my finger everyday nt to c code blue in my shift. this cant be avoided. my in-charge activated it. i tot it was a frank coll... i prayed hard it wasnt real... the moment i look out into the nurses' counter, i saw no1... i ran to the room n saw the defit machine there... SHIT!

i reali don noe wat to do... in my heart i was saying 'wth, y must b my shift'... the doc wan this n tat, i suddenly don understand him. i don noe wat to do. my in-charge was kind enuff to instruct mi n came few nurses frm other ward to help. it was 0730. i did bagging to sunctioning. we did our best.

i went back to my cubicle to continue my medication round. the feeling was bad. i probably got a shock till then. i wanted to do the last office but i got my own team to care.

2008-06-17T22:40:00.002+08:00

my 12th lollipops

new bed, bro fixed the shelve.

1st summon on the 16th june.

2008-06-17T22:18:00.002+08:00

just came hme frm JB city square. movie marathon, 'Prom Night' & 'the incredible hulk' again. lolx. i watched it for the 2nd time. 'prom night' is nt bad. the stry kept mi in suspense. i wan to hide but nth to hide tat kind of feeling. lolx. we had a heavy lunch, nt heavy oso la, just normal meals we will eat but it is so full tat i cldnt had dinner. i manage to eat my 'aunty annie' at 3.20Rm. hahahhaha. tat's my main aim to go there.

thks to bangala. i had a long journey hme frm JB to woodland-bishan-hme. rather den bugis-hme. we wanted to c which is faster. faster for him actually. hahaha.

back to the ward 2ml. no mre buddy system. taking case alone. thks to sis for letting mi run alone in AM. she wants to c mi panting n die. AM is always busy but nvm, i have half a day to treasure my youth. lolx.

The 8th...

2008-06-14T01:02:00.003+08:00

some1 rems my lolli. i had received 8 so far. mre to come? i cldnt rem when is the last time i had lollis. coco cola especially. i love them. hahaha. anyway, he gives mi each time he sees mi. tat was thoughtful.next time round, i hpe to go downtown east for a show. ha..... intention to have selegie tou hua, but it's closed. cldnt think of any place to eat desert. ended up going hme. hahaha.

'what happening' movie is XXXXX. wat's happening to the movie. it reminds mi of 'the village'... if any1 watched tat, u will curse n swear.

let's begin my weekend.... long to be off on SAT N SUN. another day of orientation n back to reality.

2008-06-11T23:41:00.002+08:00

had movie after orientation. suppose or expect to end early but ended up on time. had a sudden test in between. onli 15 multiple choices. she expect us to take 30mins. lolx. can be done in 10mins.

watched "sex n the city' wft bangala. the show wasnt tat ideal. think it was censored. some scene was funny la. the ice-cream biscuit reali killed mi.

i m falling sick. missing the ward smell, n workload. suddenly the body cldnt take relaxing moment. ahahahaha.

ok... BCLS 2ml. i hate this moment.

2008-06-10T21:35:00.002+08:00

having orientation this wk. my collegues all said tat i m already orientated coz i had been wrking for a month. isnt it weird to start an orientation?

i m treating it as a relaxing session. looking forward for my weekends. say a big "NO" to hmewrk when she gives us. BCLS on thur. i HATE that. i hate 30 compressions, n detest ventilation. blow until i wan to faint. reali wan my life!

recolling back last fri... i supposed to be in the lecture room listening to the speaker briefing us abt the hosp history. a "knock" on the door to look for mi. tat was my clerk. sis wants mi to go back to the ward to help out coz they r freaking busy. well, i hardly warm the seat for 10mins n was colled out. anyway, she saved mi frm boredom. hahahaha. i managed to go hme at 2.30pm instead of 5.30pm.

2008-06-05T21:15:00.002+08:00

this pic taken in tw.

the person manage to bring it over to SG. onli 3 outlets avaliable. 1 is at parkway, chinatown n i think toa payoh. every sip u drink, u will eat a mouthful of pearl. i so in love wft this drink. when i saw it, i was so happy! i managed to find it ytd while shopping wft nanny! i having 2 day off this wk. 1 is claim PH. i din wan to claim though. but beggars cant be chosen. take wat is scehduled.

i find there is lots of hypo out there. they treat u gd but at the back, they r stabbing u real hard. these actually made mi wan to quit. i just don understand y cant they tel u straight to ur face, wat mistakes u had made. instead of going round gossiping. i reali din wan to participate in the conversation although i m tempted too. hahahaha. but i think keep a distance other den work. no1 is ur fren yt! or shall i say, ur fren can be ur enemy.

my orientation is near the corner. so stupid to attend all this stuff at this moment where i had already worked for 1 month. stupid ++++.

cant wait for my confirmation so tat i can start planning my AL. n wat, AL cant be brought 4ward. nonsense. i nt sure hw many AL i got after pro-rated. probably 11 or 12.5 or even lesser.

2008-05-25T00:02:00.002+08:00

i made another human error 2day. during sch days, the lecturer emphasis on medication error. hw dangerous n serious it can be! i was nt alert n took for granted. lucky they were kind enuff to shut their mouth. haiz.

i do nt have confident in my skills. I cld perform IM injections during students days wft supervision. but nw, i m shit. i asked help frm SN to supervise mi. Sn asking a Sn... throw face rite. hack care... my mum say'i m still new' ask nw or u will nv get to ask!

Tomolo will be a BETTER day! PM shift all the way. i doubt sis will put mi AM coz i m nt strong to run alone.

2008-05-23T22:10:00.002+08:00

i getting used to everything n i might be transfered out. wth... just becoz of ward is overcrowded wft Sn. the previous En r promoting to Sn n either they bring transfer or mi. the Promise i made to her.. since when xia! this wasnt the promise. she just ask mi to helped out if another ward is opened. anything u can say! i got no say. well, very most i will go to OT. although i m very reluctant. i think the enviroment there is much mre better.

my decision to stay on is very shaky. my mum, aunt n uncle r giving mi the determination n reasons y i shld stay! i just find that, they r so fake. wearing a mask, being a hypocrite. i don like the feeling. well, tat's LIFE! u don noe hu is ur true fren yt. besides wrk, there is nth to communicate. i m a mute when i m at wrk. so when u guys see mi, i might nt tok. lolx.

imagining losing count of wat is the day. everyday seems to be a weekday. no weekends. n wat, i haven got an off on weekend yt. doubt there will be a chance.

i made a human error 2day. n i wont 4get this stupid error i have made. this teaches mi to be mre observant n careful!

2008-05-13T09:19:00.002+08:00

wat m i doing at this hr when i m supposed to enjoy my slp?
well, i woke up early to have breakfast wft bangala kiat at kovan mac. i finally got to eat my macgrillers. the difference is the bread. it is some sort of hotcakes taste. i m dwn wft flu n slight sore thorat after having the hashbrown n milo. my body cld nt take the heatness. a heavy blow. i don wan to take unpaid medical leave. i started wrk in the middle of may, if this continues, i m going to bring hme peanuts.

2008-05-12T18:25:00.002+08:00

i was expecting orientation on the 1st day of wrk. nv did i noe tat, i just nid to sign the employment papers n straight to the ward. tat was pretty fast ok! wat the things i can do as a SN, can i give IV n stuff... nt instructed.

when i passed by the ward to walk to HR, they were cheering n teasing mi. colling mi SN! omg... i m nt used. just so pai seh n smiled. i look diff wft my new hairstyle, dyed my hair n my hair is longer compared to PRCP. i felt welcomed... sister was asking whether i changed my hairstyle? my sis very observant rite. still rem mi! so touched. haha. 1 of my collegues used to be a Sn when i was having PRCP.. but nw is SSN.. she is my preceptor. so surprised to c so many changes within 3mths... she gave mi a orientation of the ward. i'm much happier partnering her rather den others. hpfully will be wft her for 2wks.

i felt like a wandering soul. i missed the report taking n entered half way. floating ard the whole shift. i even signed my name as NYP n nt SN. lolx. n i was being laughed by my mistake. the doc came telling mi abt the pt's condition. i was thinking "wth, y u tel mi".. oh, i m a SN. almost forgot my post. haha. the colour i m wearing nw doesnt suits mi la. i prefer n missed the white uniform. guess wat.. OFF 2ml. i bearly start wrk n having off so soon. the sister wanted to give mi off on sun IF i helped out at the fun fair. wth! i reject her offer. that is nt = off lor.

2008-05-10T01:18:00.002+08:00

watched 'speed racer' 2day. i don reali like it. nt realistic. the cinema was filled wft students. they r so damm fucking noisy. this grp of boys sat behind my row. i hate it. kept shaking my chair. damm pissed. it like they r having spasm.

my tongue is burning after i had 'bat ku teh' for dinner. i drank the soup tat nanny had boiled. i upper jaw n tongue just feel so uncomfortable nw. shuts!

2008-05-07T21:19:00.003+08:00

i like this kind of life. woke up at 1.30pm. watch my HK series, take a nap, eat. thinking about going to wrk on mon makes mi cry! i don noe y. i m nt prepare to be a SN. the rank is a stress to mi. thinking about drugs, dignosis, peers and patients.... argh!!!! i reali wan to cry. but i tel myself to take it easy. learn frm the start n slowly crawl to success! i wan to be in my mother's womb!

had shushi tei wft mum n bro. its been quite some time we had dinner 2gather. the food is nt cheap but it's fresh. something diff for once.

simply love this LCD as my com. so nice to watch movies n shows online. but too bad, it's ah xia! she's so shocked tat i m interested to take a pic of her screen. lolx. she nv see some1 so overwhelmed.

2008-05-06T23:42:00.002+08:00

money is running dry. desperately went back do to 1 day admin at least can cover cost for mother's day. haha. this morning mood is real dwn. crawl out of my bed to get to wrk. i m so lazy! anyway, there r 2 werid incident i occured.

incident 1:
morning train to boon lay. when the train door opened, the person infront hesitated to step in. becoz there is a pool of vomitus on the floor. some undigested breakfast this inconsiderate person had... at every station, i have been looking at the person reaction, the min they stepped in. sme proceed to another door while some tip toes in. at lavender station, this middle age man walked in wft his head up... stepped on the vomitus, glided n ALMOST kissed the floor. eeew.... i was smiling when i saw tat.(ok i noe it is bad but i cldnt help it) he was cursing n swearing.

Lesson learnt: sometimes it is gd to walk wft ur heads dwn!

incident 2:
after work, walking toward bugis train station. i was about to go dwn the escalator, this indian man, like lost his soul, walking 2wards the opp direction of the escalator. he stepped on it n looked up. he quickly stepped back. WTH!!! this is funny. his reaction like sme 'kungfu' master. hahahahaha. (i know this is bad to laugh)

met xia n chit chatted. its been quite sme time we chatted. i reali forgetten the exciting news tat i shld share wft her. she supposed to mit be at my place after sending mi to pick my dad's car... ended up losting her way, n had a changed of plan. haiz... 4ever cant recognize the roads. faintz!

i had watched iron man. i reali like this show. the cars, house n the technology. proof... NICE! Speechless! nanny is also in love wft it. senior citizen pays onli 4 bucks!!! c'mon... is damm worth!

2008-05-02T23:41:00.004+08:00

had ice cream n mudpie for supper wft godma n mummy after roasary prayers. it had been quite some time we invited ppl to our hse. but the weather is freaking hot... 3 fans out in the living room. as usual, the scoop at ICE place is small. n the price is $9.90. nt worth la.

so into korean show nw. after watching lee joon gi- 'the time between dog n wolf'-rank 2 in korean... nw watching 'flowers for my life'... hahha.

2008-04-30T20:45:00.003+08:00

2day i brought my niece out. intend to go to pasir ris downtown east to play the explorer kid thing. but don wan wat shit, it was closed. DISAPPOINTMENT! majority of the games there were closed. i tot wild wild wet was the same. anyway, i cld c disppointment n SIANZ look on her. can c but cant touch! thinking hard where do they have places for kids! we went to white sand n TM to walk. the onli thing she cld play was the $1 car thingy. she played 3 diff machine. lolx. tat the onli thing we cld make her happy. mimi bought her a pair of puma shoes. the pair of addias we bought for her was too small. she bearly wore it. kids legs grow damm fast! i m unhappy. i shld haf serve the net to check n shldnt take things for granted. probably bring her for a swim after she has recover frm flu.

just received a col frm a SN. was asked whether i m interested to wrk PCA 2nit n 2ml. i was kin but nite shift!!! all alone. rejected the offer. m i bad? i think they reali nid help.

PS: the rain 2day causes the weather to be mre humid.

2008-04-30T00:01:00.002+08:00

i force myself to wake up. had an appointment wft the HR at 10am. lucky i left hse early, oresle i will be late becoz there is no parking. wth! cars r waiting for lots. the HR guy was abit pissed. nt mi obviously. he got off on the wrong side of the bed. he instructed mi to bring my bank statement on my 1st day of wrk. i just randomly ans him 'i had just printed during my attachment period, must i stil give'... "JUST DO IT".... FINE!!!! i mumbled behind him. for nth get this attitude frm u in the morning. he brought mi to tried out my uniform. the place is so kampong style.

i got my uniform finally. 3 dresses n 1 pant suit. the pants is high waist la. i asked the aunty got hipster anot... a real typical Aunty!!!! the weather is a killer. perspiring madly while trying out. the pants is reali nt suitable for mi.... i requested for the M size pants, but she refused. she claims tat it will be too big for mi. well, she might nv noe. my big butt can fit nicely. the dress is neither too baggy or too tight. wth... i still nid to author it.

i don noe where the hell he heard frm... he was told tt i m nt happy being posted to the ward. i chose it myself. hw can i nt be happy. i told him honesty tat though the SIS can be cranky but i m willing to be in there. he agrees wft mi. n still can say..'old ppl is like tat'. hahahahaaha... he added... 'we r concern abt ur well-being. we don wan u to be unhappy'... wow!! i find it bull shit. i heard frm senior tat they give empty promises! hack!!!

movie in the evening. i was kinda pissed when i rch n he was late. added on, the weather made mi boiled. our watch had a diff time. he claims he wasnt late. fine! lucky it was onli 5mins late, oresle i wld just go hme though i had this intention. Subway for dinner. this reminds mi of my days wft xia in subway. filling sandwhich which we had made.
"Forbidden Kingdom" for the 2nd time. no mre 3rd time... i will slp in there. recapping some funny scene.
beancurd for supper at kovan.

2008-04-28T21:35:00.002+08:00

soursop n mango freeze....
tang hoon tom yam on a hot stone!

JB trip.. branch at this sizzling resturant. the spagetti is added wft chilli sause nt tomatoe. taste awaful. n this made xia ful for the whole day. crazy... just this plates, she can tell mi she is FULL.

2008-04-28T21:13:00.003+08:00

recolling back....

24th april.
xia n mi risked our life to JB. my mum disagree to it n ask mi to back out when it was raining heavily tat morning. we reali enjoyed ourself. toking loudly, laughing loudly like no1 business. went for massage, shopping, eating. she reali lousy. ate spagetti for branch n kept complaining she is full... i wan to eat lots of things but she is a spoiler. haha. as usual, she came back wft big bags of soft toy. she totally in love wft it after she had gotten her caterpillar frm KL. i just got myself a doggy. i bought a similar toy b4 n gave it to my ex. nw i wan it for myself. haha. we bought hme cakes frm secret receipe. 3 slices of cheese cake n 2 walnut brownies. it is worth buying. the size of it! 400Rm for her wasnt enuff. lolx. i just spent my 200RM nia. FUN!

25th april.
met xia again. went for dinner after my errands. i wasnt kin or ready for date. i wld put my love 1st. we ate 'xiao guo mian'... budget dinner at gardens market. roti john for supper. but my bro ate it be4 our food can be digested. i knew she is going to mit her dear.. so i planned movies wft him. felt bad for pushing it away. anyway, 'doomsday' was gruesome. heads flying, they roasted the body n served it to the frens, explosions of the bodies. yucks. a "wonderful" show for the night. lolx.

26th, 27th...
hme stay. dinner out. crab bee hoon at enous coffee shop was shiok. the bee hoon is soak n strong crab taste.

2008-04-24T00:19:00.003+08:00

work again. my boss is back frm holidays. i have been alternate days. tats shldnt be the way. she almost freak out when i told her i nt coming 2ml. lolx. hackz!

seriously, i have been thinking, wat kind of feelings i m having rite nw. my mind kept changing everyday. First, i m hping to be back 2gather wft him, secondly, i wan to start anew. wth... ppl mistaken tat we r still 2gather, but actually we r nt. just close friends! we just tok normally n comfortably wft each other. i just cant find a guy who i can opened up too. i find him old just like my bro. imagine dating sme1 similar to my bro age!!! eee!!! cant imagine. n he is still pursuing his diploma. thinking.... i still can leave w/o a relationship though i might be longing for 1. as i always say...'let nature take its course'.

It takes time to realise...

2008-04-21T21:01:00.002+08:00

i nt sure whether i shld be happy or sad... i asked my mum to develop a 4R photo to a 3R size. i don haf the originals but just the photo onli. she took my wrds seriously. i told her i nid it by 2day n do it fast. wth, she developed 1 pic for $12 n it comes it sets of 4. kaoz.. it is damm ex for just 4 photos of a 3R size. n is smiliar. i reali felt heart pain. don noe to laugh or to cry. $12 leh. can eat at least 2 mcwings meal, 6plates of chicken rice. i c the pic, i feel like eating it. $12.. heart aching.... y din she col mi??? she replied: "u say u nid it by 2day"... thanks mum. but u shld haf consider it.. $12.. nt $2... omg.... my heart is bleeding..

sis colled in the morning n asked mi to mit the assis.director in the afternoon. ok.. tat was pretty rush. i onli went to wrk for 4 hrs n headed for the interview. she told mi long stry in there. i m nt interested whether she nid to help out in the ward or wat. i cant b bothered whether can she set plug after so many yrs. she just blah her way wft her stry repeatedly. i think i can even mermoise it. took abt 45mins in there wft her. but the most impt things she has to say takes onli 10mins or less... earliest to start wrk on 28april, if nt may.

2008-04-17T23:55:00.003+08:00

GENTING TRIP on 15th-17th

the trip was great. we reali enjoyed ourselves. the 1st trip wft xia n hui. 3 of us squeeze in 2single beds. so cozy. the weather there was cooling.

1st day...
we put our bags in the room, rest for awhile n started walking. we had pizza hut at abt 4pm. wasnt an ideal tea break. the pizza had too little ingredients. walked ard our hotel area n went over to the arcade side. had photo taking wft the mist air. lolx. bought calling card there. 43cent RM for 1 min col n 20cent RM for a msg. consider cheap ba. anyway, we suspected xia is eyeing on the sales guy. we went back thrice to ask abt the card stuffs. lolx. we din even noe we had walked till 8+pm. we rushed for our movie "3 kingdoms"on OSIM chair. i dozed of in the middle of the show partly becoz of the comfortable massage frm the OSIM chair. i don like the show, all the history n gruesome scene. we had ger's chat b4 slping.----3.30am.

2nd day...
breakfast for 2 person. hui n i went dwn to eat tat errrrr breakfast. so crowded la n nt mre variety. think onli the fried eggs tasted gd. smuggle 2 cakes up for xia. n wat, she din bring it out went we left the hotel.
took cable car dwn frm genting n bus to KL. wth, chi-na ppl q-ing too.. bunch of them alright. mayb due to the weather, there is no BE-do smell. reached abt 12noon.
ok... i or we did a dishonest act there. my mum had scolded mi for tat.

part1...
i bought char siew shu--total was $7.50.
i gave the man $10.50.
he returned mi $5 n i walked away w/o telling him. i knew he is going to give mi the wrong change, he's action- handling the cash box. i was thinking mayb there was a discount(craps). c'mon, i m teaching him a lesson for nt giving the rite change. by this, he will learn his mathematics.(self-consoling)

part 2...
we bought soft toy at KL shopping centre. the sales ger told us tat that the caterpillar toy has onli left wft the bigger size. the smaller size is sold out. ok lor... sold out huh, den i took the monkey toy. it is link wft the main store upstairs.
monkey cost 35. xia helped mi to bargin till 25 + other toys we bought frm her.
den we went upstairs just for curiousity, i saw the smaller ver of the caterpillar at 28rm. but she willingly to sell at 25rm. i reali like it, i asked whether can change for the money i bought. the lady boss standing at the cashier agreed immediately n ask to refund mi 10rm. we were shocked la. coz she din noe we bought it at 25rm. hahahaha. we earned 10rm for nth. we took n left the shopping centre. ok la, it is bad to do tat. i gotten scolding frm my mum. even ask mi to go for confession. lolx.

the toys were too bulky. 2 big bags of plactic bag stuffed wft our items n we carried back up to genting. dead beat after walking. 9pm reached genting. abt 1.5 hrs journey due to the stupid jam in KL.

OSMI massage chair again.... movie slot for 1130 is sold out for the massage chair. so we catched the 0130 show. "ah long"... funny movie but 1 of our chair is spoiled n cldnt get a refund. retribution i think. we slpt at 0430.

last day...
xia was supposed to be incharge in waking us up. n wat, she shouted tat it was 12noon. kaoz... we jumped up of the bed to change n faster check out. ltr for nth being charge for another stay. we tot she was kidding but her panick face tells the truth. it rained the last day. thank God tat we left the place. haha.

the trip was nonsense. late nites n early day.

2008-04-13T23:49:00.002+08:00

i was waken up by the noise in the living room. wth, shouting. she scolded him for being a liar. becoz of $... he has gotten mre but he just told her he had abit. fuck xia. i reali din wan to tok to him. i heard the quarrel in the room. my tears just rolled dwn. i just find it injustice for her after what she had done for the family. he is just bringing in troubles for her to clear. i just hate it. he is a gd daddy but nt a gd husband. n y must they bring the children in to the story! ok, i know she wants to tel mi her problems... but the mre u know something, the mre troubled i m. i just don wan to be in the pic. i heard her telling mi the stry, i just hate him. i don understand y must he do tat. doesnt he knows wat is GRATITUDE! afterall she is ur wife. seriously, i hate guys being like this. some1 is slogging for u n yt u r enjoying ur life. c'mon, ur frens r shit. ur family is the 1 tat is going thru all the shit stuff wft u. dont u wan them to enjoy life for once! instead of spending ur money on them. wth! damm it!

2008-04-09T11:09:00.002+08:00

i feeling dwn after reading the sms. tt's nt wat i meant. i admit i m irresponsible. kept changing time. i reali sick n tired of wrking. the routine job i have been doing everyday. u knew i was bored too, at least u r sensitive to notice it. i m staying becoz i ought mre wan to show u i m nt irresponsible by leaving like this. i hpe that i can clear the wrk i have been doing n leave. i can always just leave w/o caring. afterall, i m a part timer.

partly i feel obligated to u. just becoz of the extra cash u given mi for my trip. i don wan to show u tt i m a ungrateful person. sometimes i having thoughts of wrking of u coz of this. aiya... i just think tat she is a nice person, n i shldnt say NO to her. saying NO is so difficult. i don wan her to think tt i m the same as her past PA. so lazy, n taking ADVANTAGE of her.. which i M nt. i m showing my upmost sincere in wrking for her.

sometimes i think i m giving FOR NOTHING stress to myself... simple shit stuff tat can be solved but i just kept thinking too much. wth. this is nt mi!!! i don have a firm mind. damm it.

anyway, i find tat i shld be self centred. the BEST solution.

2008-04-03T01:08:00.003+08:00

finally caught STEP UP 2 wft des. nice movies. he oso agrees wft it though he did nt watch part 1. no link too la. i was surprised to find out tat paying cash cost more den paying by nets. so weird. therefore, i settle my movie payment by nets. it enjoys the same benefit as UOB visa. went hme after tat n met yq... he is leaving to thailand to wrk. chatted at the void deck n headed hme.

2008-04-02T00:22:00.002+08:00

my boss had a talk wft mi regarding wrking wft her. this is the 1st time we reali sat dwn n tok the terms. come to think of it, it is no diff frm wat hosp is paying. just tat i get to wrk 5 days a wk n get to share her commission. after 2 wks break n back to wrk, i find this job is boring. so routine, no life... just PAPER n PAPER. wrking this job doesnt nid a diploma cert. even aunty oso can wrk. so i might as well nt waste my 3 yrs of studies. CONGRATS to myself for thinking it thru. mind is MADE up. sis of the ward is looking for mi. lolx. i will nt disappoint her.

i m just avoiding the stress i m facing in future. i cant c myself. probably i m thinking too much. but i m afraid!!! i don wan to give myself stress. i just hate it. be4 i can experience it, i m thinking it day n night. lolx.

2008-03-31T22:21:00.004+08:00

great.. back frm cameron highlands(tanah Rata). left last thur nite. sat the train n reach KL @ 7am. long journey la. n the train bed is nt clean. i laid my big towel, face towel n blanket. brought so many things wft mi but din bring my PSP. i m so bored there. no TV, no Hot water, no Internet.

we lodged at 'Our Father's guest house'. 2 nites is enuff to kill mi. did alot of walking. we walked up the mountains to c the tea plantations 'BOH' tea... we cld just take a cab up but Father prefer to walk up n dwn the mountain. OK.. at least i m exercising. after tat, we went for jungle walk. hmm... quite scary but the air is so fresh in there. out on the main roads, cars r many, air is polluted. strawberry is like the main attractions. everywhere is strawberry farm la. the juice is so pure. but too bad, i think it wasnt the seasons, tats y i din c many ripe strawberrys.

this 1 scoope of ice-cream cost 11RM. it is hme-made by the hotel. pure strawberry. lucky we ate it for free coz of Father's face. lolx. the owner of the hotel knows him. just 1 nite stay in the hotel cost 490RM.

well, this will be my 1st n probably the last time to enter cameron highlands. unless, i really nid to relax n lost touch wft this world. lolx.

enuff of hols, n back to reality. which job shld i take... go for interest or pay???

2008-03-27T17:01:00.002+08:00

this is TW mac wings.. resembles like KFC 2 piece chix. they oso haf original n spicy favour. but i don taste any spice in it. i still prefer sg taste. mre juicy. coke abit diff leh.. lolx. coke frm bottle n can taste diff lor. frm wat i think la.

i m deeply in love wft MAC. i don care whether it is oily or wat. i just like to eat. i have been eating twice a wk mac last month. expensive but i like. BUT... i don like the BIG MAC Ivan!!!!! lolx.. nth related to him.

2008-03-26T19:45:00.013+08:00

the sanitary pad onli sold in tw... i almost wanted to buy coz of SHE stickers.

milk tea wft small pearl
20th March 2008
after we had put our luggage in the hotel, we headed on wft our plan. our room is so small. nt meant to walk but to cross over ur stuff. we asked for an exchange. n they recommended us the private suit. tat is human place!!!

the night market we went was shit. selling seafood stuff. we din noe actually coz it was in the map. so tot it might be 1 of the interesting attraction places. look at the drink... small pearl. very nice. u noe wat they col their big pearl... 'Pu ding' i was like.. izzit it mango pudding tat kind of size????

'huan huan ai' shot at there. the feri wheel.

the outlook of the building we having lunch.
the food is delicious. the dishes sounded weird too.

21st March 2008
we joined the 1 day city tour. we tot is a grp of ppl.. ended up, there is onli 4 of us in the bus. mre like a private tour. the package includes hot spring, lunch at this unqiue resturant, a trip to visit the tapei grand hotel. don noe wat history abt it. din reali listen to the guy talking. lolx.

he brought us to 1 place.... u give the lady ur name n bdae, she can count n so colled c ur future. wat she says is true la... n asked mi to buy the stone jade to protect myself. well, i wanted to but it is nt right to my religion. haiz... she says i will have problems wft my marriage in future.... argh!!!! after tat was shopping paradise at their wholesaler stall(Wu Fen Pu). the clothing wasnt suitable nt mi. but managed to get some cheap sweater n t-shirts.
22nd March 2008

planing to go to Zhu bei(outskirt). but their was a long Q to get the tix. so we gave it a miss. purpose to go there is to c HEBE bro shop.

we went to Dan shui, n shiling market... the oyster is diff frm sg. ours is egg n flour r equal but theirs has mre flour. the chilli taste diff la... nt to our taste bud. orelse it will be perfect.

mexican food. brownie is nt very sweet. perhaps we have diff taste bud frm us.
23rd March 2008

(my face is getting rounder)

when we abt to leave the hotel at 0830. we saw the ppl setting up the stage for kenji's autograph in the afternoon. haiz... wasted. cant experience the crowd there coz i going outskirt.

Trip to Hsin Chu(Zhu bei).... took a 1h20mins train ride to the place. had a hard time finding the resturant coz no1 noe where is the road. or shall i say, in zhu bei, u can c the diff between the well to do n nt well to do ppl. so it is common for them nt to noe the road. her bro is yandao la... look much better on TV. hahahahha... but i was hping to c her but nvm, her bro is enuff. my nanny was telling him tat i a deep FANS of her sis... wth.. throw face xia. lolx. anyway, i m glad to find the place. ppl treats u like an alien askng for direction. somre their chinese sounds so shit to them.

24th March 2008

last day in tapei. cant bear to leave the place. i so in love wft the windy weather. we did last min shopping n went to this 'MODERN TOILET' place to eat ice. the decoration is all realated to toilet. even the drink is a urinal. ice cream is a shape of a shit.

my godsis was telling mi.. 'charlene.. take the airport.. it's proves u went to tw. coz those ou xiang ju oso had this in the show'. lolx. no comment. n my plane tat brought mi saftely back to SG!

reali enjoyed myself in taipei. we planned our time n places to go. we communicated n asked for directions. hmm.. don mind going again.

2008-03-19T22:18:00.002+08:00

finally march has arrived. i m going for my hols. n wat.. heard tat the protest or election is on SAT... hopefully i wont be in tat crowd. n i m falling sick at tis kind of shit time. damm it. i hpe i will be much better 2ml. feverish, body's hot.

charlene is learning hw to wear contact lens. she nids courage. lolx. touching the eyes is totally impossible. she kept blinking like nobody business. like this hw to put in the lens? haha. the man taught mi her hw to put in on in 1 hr... imagine... 1 hr sitting there, removing n putting it on. she is still nw use to wearing lens. even blogging nw is so difficult. the nose bridge is just so empty. nth is resting on it. lolx.

2008-03-15T00:06:00.002+08:00

i just feel so emo 2day... I UNDERSTAND WAT IS LONELY... no matter hw many frens u got.. the most impt moment u nid them, they were nt there. Mi, Myself n I r the best person u can ever find. i ought mre to believe that. maybe due to the long wrking hrs i have been having n late nites causes my emo... 2day i ended wrk early, hping to get sme1 out for dinner, either din pick up my phone, or having date. regrets.. i shld have buried myself till 10pm. well, tat's life man! it's so disappointing. i just don wish to tok. had a ride all the way to airport to had my dinner n back hme.

i was hping tat u will come though u were a complete stranger to me. but u msg mi too late. i was on my way hme. anyway, thks.

came hme n saw my mum... i asked her was she free... great.. she wasnt. i just hpe u tel mi u r wrking n nt playing mahjong. fcuking sad to hear tat. n wat... u say i din telll u.. wth. i told u on thur, u say u nt free. anyway, i will be going alone. eh, vell, our time don mit tat y i left u out.

2008-03-12T23:35:00.002+08:00

this r the items i got for my boss's client. is her bdae n she wants mi to send it dwn to her. well, since i m being paid to do that, i have no say. haha. like this cost $50.

this is the crowd in the IT fair on sun. imagine hw many ppl was there... i was 1 of them. haha! i wanted to get a lappy.. but wat about my old lap top.. it is still in a gd condition if i din nt dl alot of software... haiz!

2008-03-12T00:38:00.002+08:00

we had dinner at T3. suppose to go to chomp chomp but due to the weather, we decided to have popeye's. haha. chit chat n left the place ard 10+. i din even knew it was late.

i have been wondering whether to carry on wft my career. i mean hw long can i do nursing. in the 1st place it wasnt my cup. but i finished the course with the help of my mum. nw she lets mi decide. i wish she cld decide for mi as b4. i all the long like to do business. nw it seems confusing. i like nursing too, i enjoy. but to do tat for life is totally out of the qns. shit... i m changing my mind everyday.... i nid an ans... i don like office wear but like the job scope. i starting to fall in love wft my boss. she is psycho-ing mi erveyday. 2day just within half an hr she makes my mind AHHH!!!!

i like to take care of the elderly.. it gives mi satisfication but i m afraid of the stress tt i will be facing. but hu don face stress! thinkng the hols i will be getting... kinda sian. ppl get to enjoy PH but i might be wrking.

2008-03-09T13:57:00.005+08:00

wrking at a Fun Fair is nt easy. so tiring to stand the whole day. we gather at 7.30am n to realise the event is going to start at 11am. den wat for come so early. lucky they allowed us to have our breakfast. we had BK. woo.. harshbrown was nice.

we had shelther over us. poor vell had to be under the sun, in-charging rock climbing. when the sun is about to set, i went to disturb her n helped her. lolx. hui xia was doing the BOOM Blaster... tat is fun la. we had to burst the balloon within 45s. i m playing wft it before the event started. testing out the pump. haha. my section- MOney Typhoon wasnt tat fun but it attracted many kids. also nt money inside, is cards. perhaps they just enjoying the cool air inside the enclosed area.

Eh, check this out. new designed socks by mi!!!!
so coincidence to c pao yu n xiao wen wrking there as well.

vell n mi had dinner. suppose to dine in at xing wang but due to the menu.... we decided to haf KFC. we had already seated la n left after flipping the menu. so paiseh! lolx. but at least some1 is there to throw face wft mi. walking ard white sand and b4 we left, we had swensen ice-cream... yummy.. extremely full after the desert. lolx.

2008-03-07T23:40:00.003+08:00

maybe i shld consider extending my wrking hrs. ending wrk at 8pm is much better den 6pm, squeezing wft the crowd. praying hard for a seat in the bus every evening.

the full time staff in the office always like to ask mi to eat. they don c mi eating evryday. n even told my boss.. "Hw come ur ah ger don nid to eat ar". lolx. my boss worried i might faint half way. but i m nt hungry leh. lazy to eat. or rather save money. i usually buy sandwhich frm 7-11 in the morning n eat it b4 i enter the office. hahahaha. my boss offered to treat mi la. but abit pai seh to accept the treat. i being to like wat i m doing.

i boarded 63 this morning to c handful of elderly. they r standing. nt seating!

2008-03-05T20:53:00.003+08:00

oh shit... my boss is psycho-ing mi to be permanent PA... i kinda of wanting to be. so sick n tired of waiting for our results to be release. every1 is asking mi when i m startin wrk. i cant start becoz of the licsence la.

on the other hand, thinking of studying dip for 3yrs n do PA wrk, is kinda of wasted. imagine ur frens becoming sister n i..... running errands everyday. haiz.... i must nt be shaky. stand firm... arh!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-01T15:16:00.003+08:00

we suppose to have breakfast this morning at 9am for chit chat session. but we were too tired to get up since we had mit up ytd nite. 1st time sat in ah xia's car. RECKLESS! she moved her steering like no1 business. lolx. well, nid time to change this habit. i had already told my mum tat i m staying overnite. at 1st i wanted to go hme since all is going hme, and ah xia's kept mi so i stayed. she scared she feels LONELY la! haha. we chatted until 4.30am den we slpt. too tired to continue the conversation. lolx.

back hme at 11am after her FREN send mi hme. haha!

2008-02-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

where the hell is valley point... look at the map doesnt make mi reach the place immediately. walking under the hot sun finding the place. well, better den staying in the office doing all the scaning n paperwork. so SIANZ!!!! after valley pt, i headed to chinatown.

suppose to reach at 2pm. but i was abit late. lucky she did nt col n kao bei. in fact she din call mi the whole day. i felt guilty la. kept thinking she might think that i cheat her. lolx. i did la. n i had my retribution for eating instead of going straight back to office. i felt so uncomfortable after gobbling dwn the macspicy n fries!!!! for tat moment, i hated macdonalds. regretted having tat stupid meal. i din get the chance to enjoy my food!

another 3 mre wks to my trip. so long la.. after back frm trip is WORK! cant imagine mi being a SN!

1st FEB 2008

2008-02-25T01:36:00.002+08:00

LAST DAY IN NYP! my new hair colour!

My lao da n her "Ma Zi". lao da doing big business n her ma zi to support her.

My Love ah xia in lecture hall, n Love2 Ah minn at MAC

3 years of classmates! time just flies like this! Blink Blink!

FRI, SAT, SUN

2008-02-25T00:49:00.006+08:00

fri's nite at vell hse was fun. huixia join us. her mum bought fried rice n KFC for us. tat is really alot for supper. after eating, we start to bitch ard. den we started our game. had tai di den followed by another counting game. the loser willl drink water. OMG, reali a killer. hui xia, min min n mi drank so much la. we cldnt go to the toilet till 4am. ended up we went at 3.30am. the bladder going to be full up to the stomach la. imagine hw urgent i was!!! the next game round is vell turn to lose. Mr sway went to make fren wft her. haha. but we din played long. all of them felt tired den we went hme soon after everything. vivian la.. bring her go ended up slping at ppl's hse. throw face xia!!!! slping wft diff pattern. lucky all gers, if nt, it will be damm throw face la. lolx

i onli haf 3hrs slp n was late to pick my niece up for a swim. anyway, she enjoyed herself sitting n pushing the fish ard the pool. (the fish wasnt easy to blow but my Super nanny did tat)

n wat... i FIRST time doing a parrell parking in between 2 cars... hahahhahahaha! gd start!

we went to T3 to take a look after it has been bulit. partly becoz we had the complimentary parking coupon too la.

it is much bigger den T1 &T2... much mre spaceous, n the kopitam is super big. crystal jade so classy. even the toilet sign is diff la. some parts of the structure reminds mi of HK airport. like the long bridge towards the check in station. i wonder hw it is inside the airport. we onli cld take pic frm the outside. in order to take a train to T2, the distance to the train station is frm 1 end to another la. n mind u, it is those long distance walk la. overall, we spent 3.5 hrs. hahahha!

i finally got my nike slippers frm queenway. $4 cheaper. the slippers is for guys, but hu cares, i just love it. haha! we went to anchor point n walk walk. coz we had no place in mind to go. orchard area very sian smre nid to pay ERP. tat is totally out frm the list. many factory outlets store there but nth i like leh. my mind is onli slipper n watch. haha. the city chain outlet is nt cheap after discount oso la. vivian's uncle shop offering cheaper watches. perhaps he deals directly frm the dealers.

so we went to bugis n got my casio watch. they scolded mi for buying n nt wearing it. haha. i don haf the habit la. i wear watch oso will take out my hp to look at the time. stupid rite. but it is a habit.

2008-02-22T13:39:00.002+08:00

21 FEB 2007

2day is the 15th Day of CNY. i was supposed to hav dinner at my grandma hse. but of coz, i will find ways nt to go. i don like to be in tat atmosphere. when i was in pri n sec schools, i have no stand to reject but nw it is different. haha. so i went to nanny hse. so coincidence, she cooked shark fins... yummy! her food taste great as usual. after dinner, we went to NTUC to get glutinous rice ball. just haf a sudden craving for it.

wrk was shit. my boss always nt ard n her request is always nt clear. wth. i did almost everything n told mi she doesnt want it to be this way. F! did the changes, lucky there isnt much too! Long ago she noe hw to scan many pages at 1 goal la. F her again for nt telling mi. like an idiot fool scanning 1 page at a time. wrking for the sake of $. nt to do it as a occupation. she kept psycho-ing mi to do full time... plz lor, will die wft her. so messy! i rather clean pt's shit den ur shit.

actually being a fren is better den a couple. no commitments, no scarifices. who cares whether u r free, did u call or nt. i mean at this age.
on the other hand, for a long run, being a spinster in future... OM!!! i cant imagine. dying without any1 knwing, going for movies alone, slping alone.... ah!!!!
(just a thought tat came thru my mind, no other intentions)

2008-02-21T00:05:00.003+08:00

oh ya, congrats to germs. welcome to the "ice kachang" world.

don noe y, these few days, we kept bumping into each other. 2day germs saw mi at bugis. she was in the bus n she colled. asking mi u m i walking up the stairs. like stalker xia. i ask her, y u din take a pic of my back? lolx. tat's wat i did to her the other time. so funny!

wth, 1 kind soul came up to mi n taught mi hw to scan many documents at 1 time. all this while i have been scanning 1 by 1 la. i din noe tat there is such a function. it is much mre faster. ass hole. my boss must be a technology idiot.

anyway, i told her i will start wrk at 11 instead of 10am. i cant wake up on time, or rather i m lazy to get up. i rather skip laugh n go wrk late. i haven't been taking lunch this few days. partly becoz i wasnt out to do depatch. i just took my breakfast n lasted till 7pm. dehydrating too. becoz the toilet is freaking quiet. i had no choice but to enter.

i was hungry just like ytd. my mum decided we have pizza hut for dinner. ya, she saw mi eat mre likely.

i intended to order the regular pizza. but she scared we cant finish it. so just ordered the personal share. nt satifying leh. we shared the crayfish spaghetti. i wld nv like to try others except for the pizza. this is my 2nd bad experience having spaghetti. the drumlets is in my tummy. if u did an OGD, probably u can c it flowing dwn FAST. lolx.

turning in nw. getting excited for PAY DAY! nt much but is $$$$. fri wont be wrking.

2008-02-20T01:23:00.002+08:00

2day i was screw up by my boss. partly was my fault. the appointment wft the client was at 11am @tampines n i left hme at 1015. she msg mi at 11am but i was onli at bedok. wth. i don even noe where is the place. smewhere in the middle of simei n tampines. anyway, i alighted at simei n told her i lost my way. actually i just reached. she nt happy la. anyway hu cares. i take my time n walk to find the place(she told mi to take a cab frm where i m). i walked until buay tanhan den took a cab. $4.. imagine hw near i m to the place. she say she is going to pay mi once i mit the client. Fuck xia. i get the document signed n msg her. she will remibus mi the $. for of anger, i told her nvm... i walked n manage to find the place so just pay mi my transportation fee will do.. ASS hole!!! i rather wan pride den $... $4 nia, i can afford! back to office n do scanning. sick n tired of standing. sick wft wrking!

i was happy to mit them for dinner. at least i m able to tok after the whole afternoon. oresle i m msging onli in the office. as usual, craping thru out. had subway den gelare waffle!!! go for the 50% discount. subway suppose to be a "CLASS" dining fast food. but u c the ppl wrking there. they r bringing dwn the standard of subway man! we chat till 9+ n left. reali laugh until stomache. toning night on fri!!!! haha! cheers!!! waiting for the pic~~~~

2008-02-18T21:15:00.002+08:00

crawled out of bed at 1015 n went to wrk. the job is making mi crazy. everyday scanning... easy job but boring. this onli make mi miss nursing. lolx. i reali enjoyed when she ask mi to deliver things. 2day office is crowded becoz they haf seminar in the evening. normally, there will be 4-5 ppl present. tats all la. so boring rite.. after that came hme n went to kovan to have my dinner. my mum is enjoying herself wft her grp of youngsters frens, watching movie n told mi nt to find her. idiot rite! lolx.

caught her in ACTION!!!

2008-02-17T23:36:00.005+08:00

i lost 30 bucks ytd on gambling. brought $30 captial n all swept away. the banker is reali...... lucky. change 3 banker, all luck equally the same. anyway, had a great time to spend the last CNY.

woke up 630 n went to church. early huh! thanks to my mum for coming into the room repeatedly. intending to skip church though! but thk GOD, i woke up alert n went. oresle it is another SIN for mi! headed to ahyi hse to take the car. n wat, shit 3 times in her hse. wth. my ass almost grew a flower.

took a nap n went to watch "jumper" wft nanny. aiya, the show jump jump jump. but the guy handsome la. haha. ok, exciting part is coming up!

after the movie, we walked out of the cinema using another exit. as usual la, bishan open space having autograph, out of curiosity, we entered the compound. i was thinking, wat autograph, like nobody wan. so empty. like 4 rows nia. perhaps it has started a while ago. anyway, hu cares. OH!, is darren. (i was thinking whether germs will be there) n wat, i reali saw her Q-ing infront la. i called her.

can c the circle i drawed.. that's her!!!! crazy to the extend tat she went alone. 3 claps for her courage! remebered she appeared on tv suppporting him... "ta heng shuai, i very support him".... i kept laughing la!!!!! my nanny thought i siao! eh, the ppl up there reali take their own sweet time la. can write name smre, think can take pic ba. heard frm germs, there is onli 100 ppl in his autograph!

k la, that all for the laughter, had our dinner at ding tai feng, i was too engrossed wft the food tat i wack the "xiao long" bao w/o taking a pic of it. too full until i forgt to take the "qian chen cake". but the food is great after so long. yummy!!!

2008-02-15T21:14:00.002+08:00

still rem vania? i saw her ytd. but i din approach her n say hi. well, just afraid she might nt know mi n tat can b embarrassing. lucky my fren made reservation to have dinner. every resturant u can c in marina squ is crowded. the q is extremely long la. most couples will be carrying flowers. OMG, hw expensive flowers can b during V.day. is daylight robbery! i don envy at all, coz it is just a waste of money. the flowers will be dead at hme. n y do u c ladies carrying flowers onli on V.day?

ok, i m a mountain tortoise. i lost my way in the train station n haf to ask the guard for help. i noe i haf to change stp in outram park. but hw the hell, i noe i m in chinatown station. i was searching high n low for the east west line... although i c the sign but i don c any exit. wth. went up to the guard:

ME: excuse mi, hw do i get to boon lay?
Guard: Oh, u got to change at outram park.
ME: huh? wat station is this?
Guard: chinatown.
ME: huh? pai seh. i tot this is outram park. no wonder i went high n low searching for boon lay exit.

kaoz... throw face xia! tats y i prefer to take bus. but becoz i onli haf $5 limit, so train is faster. anyway, i went 4 places to get things done. thks to my boss! lucky i have extra $. smetimes i find i m like a maid. just 1 cal frm her n i got to go dwn.

Boss: wru?
Mi: office dwnstairs.(carrying bags full of document)
Boss: ltr u go upstairs put the things n come dwn help mi carry smre.
Mi: ok...
tat is coll PERSONAL assistant. sounds mre class den a maid huh!

2008-02-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

did u collect ang bao until ur hands tremble? lolx. i dying for holidays but nw hw i wish i can wrk. i miss the ppl in the hosp, miss disturbing the ah mas'.

i caught 2 movies during CNY. jay's is so cute, cool n funny la. CJ7 is touching n the little ger has lots of expression. touching show when her dad died.

lost money too. i was winning for the 2nd day n lost all on the 3rd day. after tat, had mahjong. i din play la. i tot they were playing 50cent $1. hw i noe they onli playing 3,6... but the game has ended. i sat there n watched until 4am. i had to nap coz 2 lifes is in my hands. at least nw i haf a clearer pic on hw to game... haha....

more gambling on sat. hahahaha... awaiting~~~~

2008-02-02T14:37:00.000+08:00

5 mre days to CNY. i m nt at all excited. probably due to the age. every1 is leaving. less relative to visit! i don noe wat i m going to do. just seems so vexed about stuffs. about future, about life. i m hoped i can be in my mum's womb. no worries, innocent mind. everything my parents decides.

there is 1 problem wft u. u r being so fucking anti-social. nt giving any1 a chance to enter ur life. rejected all dates, all appointments. just wants to stay hme n rot. wat r u thinking about. i just don understand u. so unlike u. is this reali u? or u have changed? isolating urself in ur own world?

2008-01-21T16:59:00.000+08:00

felt so stranger when seeing u after so long. frm long conversation we had to a few sentence nw!

u cant imagine hw cute kids r nowadays... haha. ytd we brought tris for a swim at aljunied swimming complex. she is so excited. at first, she was afraid to walk in the pool! we had hard time looking after her. our legs became tired after squating in the pool n walk due to the depth. lolx. but FUN! she din slp the whole day la. i m tired, onli having 2hrs of slp! pathetic! drove to queentown to get shoes! to suntec n MS to shop!!!

who i saw... MINMIN!!!! lolx. i din disturb her la. later her mum scold mi! lolx. just spoke a few sentence n left. after coming out of the carpark, andrew colled to say, he saw mi! so coincidence. KJ's car pass by n saw mi driving. lolx.

counting to 8mre wrking days to HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!

2008-01-18T23:28:00.000+08:00

counting dwn to 9 mre wrking days!!!

evrything passes fast. 12 weeks is ending soon. n going to be earning my income! thinking back, i still having allowance frm my parents. asking for money! ah!!!! so fast!

2day, jocelyn just ended her night shift. the shit thing was she almost wan to tel mi the scary story of the hosp! dammm it... i wont wan to listen. i still nid to get back there to wrk after i graduate! lolx. i told her 100 times... plz don tell mi!!!!!

i cant wait to dye my hair!!! i have been wft black hair for 1 yr... i nid some colour! i was wondering whether shld i get a bike licsense. but i don haf the money. got to borrow frm my mum in fact! haiz!

2007-12-26T17:44:00.000+08:00

wat have i been doing on christmas's eve.... doing morning shift n had to go mama hse for dinner gathering. as usual, toking about my course stuff. asking wat i wan to do when i graduate! asking about my relationship! no bf nw ar... yaya.. most of the cousins r attached! i was supposed to attend midnite mass... but i m too tired. ended going to bed at 12mn.

christmas day itself... went to ah ma hse for gathering. my mum cook spagetiti but forgot to bring the noodles. onli brought the meat. BLUR!!!!
this time round, i din get anything for my so colled "godma". no christmas mood leh. nt like last time, so happy to receive presents. every1 has reali grown up. my cousins r younger den mi but must taller den mi. lolx. they r nw much mre mature as b4. wow... time reali flies. which mean i m getting older!

in the evening, my gf came to had steamboat. i din expect them to celebrate my bdae earlier. i love the bdae + xmas cake. thks to the ah xia, came late. suppose to be 6+ ended up 7+ almost 8pm. goodness~~~

we had gift exchange. haha. guess wat hui xia bought? .......

panties... wonder woman! so funny! she hpe pei cld get it.. n true enuff, she gotten the present. lolx. we made pei pose wft the panties!
we had ourselves drunk wft vodka which hui brought. we din add much sprite coz we played games. so punishment ma! cool man! all wan to sabo ah xia to drink. she reali become lobster n hui face was red... pei body had patches of redness.. i was alrite. onli head heavy! so dying to have a off 2day.

2007-12-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

the urology doctor reali make my day. lolx. after my dinner, i stood at the nurses counter to c wat the doc is writing. he came to ask mi...

DR: u r new here?
MI: yupz.
DR: hw long have u been here?
MI: 6wks
DR: hw come i din c u? have u been HIDING?
MI: hiding? no la, maybe u come in the morning den i wrking afternoon shift.
he smiled. of coz he asked qns like y join nursing? i hate to ans tat qns!
so he repeated my name. so u r charlene!

i called him regarding the notes he wrote, after blahing... he said again... u r charlene rite... OMG! the 1st doc hu rem my name! i tot he would just say n 4get. well..... hahahaha! if he was younger, i wld fell in love wft him! but too bad, he's old enuff to be my dad!

i mean some doc cant be bother hu r u. but as least he took the initiative to ask n recognise my presence!

2007-12-17T22:31:00.000+08:00

i m lacking of slp. last thur went to give my love a surprised at her place wft hui, pei n her "BF". we sat there till 1am.

we officially had a gathering on sat. went to waraku pasta to eat. den ben & jerry ice-cream for desert n....... chip muncks for movie!!!! aH!!!! so cuteeeeeeee. the show ended about 1am. we had chit chat session for the whole nite. a reali heart to heart talk. nonsense photo taking wft the christmas tree in MS. lolx.

it dint end. we continue our chatting on sun while working. anyway, the our wrking place reali sucks ever since the manager change. hate him +++! so unreasonable. kept aiming us. "u 4 come to wrk or come to chit chat"! ass hole. we always like tat. the ex manager oso don give a damm as long we do our wrk. we stayed in the toilet for about 45mins toking. haha! he was lucky tat we din have peanuts session after tat. he is a totally F man! ah xia, cant wait to be dismiss at 11pm. lolx.

tat will be our last time wrking them if he still there. ok! supper after wrk. 3 couples + 1 single! so bad of them! wanted to have KFC but ended up MAC. shaker Fries!!!! i love it. i have mac for 2 nites in a wk! chatted as usual. complaining of the F man n toking nonsense! parted about 1+. totally shack! hw i wish i was OFF 2day!

2007-12-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

i had watched "tattooist". hmm, no comments. overall find tat tattoo can be so scary. it's symbolism something. i heard my mum mentioning it b4. n now it sounds so real after watching. some frightening scene here n there. "golden compass" is oso a nt bad show. there is a meaning after u watch the show but to be continued....

so nice to be driven la. my fren drove w/o a licence. ok la, driving skills nt bad. quite impressive. lolx. i now like cant live w/o a car. tat is nt RIGHT! i almost lost my way tat time when i took a bus. i was like, does this bus goes to aljunied or kallang? coz my bro doesnt snatch the car wft mi n i m entitled to make full use of it. lolx.

2day we had 9pts. so shiok n slack. for once we were snatching job wft each other. fighting to ans the col bell or serve diet. lolx. i have decided to sign to there. though the pay is nt higher den others but the work load is acceptable. within my working speed! i haven fill up the form but SOON! still having second thoughts. lolx. n wat, to go sydney to study for 1yr, just half a sem n need 20K. wth! i reali hope i can make my decision quick. so unlike mi wft so many thoughts n hesitation!

2007-12-04T23:48:00.000+08:00

i m 1 of the don noe hw many hundred thousands standing behind. this is their last stop of concert. so they took a pic of the whole grp!

2007-12-04T23:19:00.000+08:00

i spent my weekend in KL. we went all the way to catch SHE concert live @ KL. sound dumb rite. but worth watching n paying the price. we had a gd seat. we reach about 3pm. thanks to the bus for travelling so slow. spoil our plan for the day. we had to rush here n there to run errands. we had to wait till our room r ready. ok fine! we grab something at times sq. we just staying upstairs of times sq.

lucky, the room wasnt disappointing, we had a shock when u c the room. BIG xia. got kitchen, toilet bowl n bathing section is seperated by doors. got sofa to watch tv, hi5....

cant have the time to ranky the room, drop our stuff n took a monorail to the stadium to get our tix. wao lao, got FANS waiting already la. as if got no seat no... those idiots don noe where we can get our tix, n we saw the confirmation slip saying "come 2hr b4 collection" wth! actually we can collect it earlier, just there we DON NOE WHERE!

we walk back to our hotel. 2 station away. no choice. afraid we might nt be able to board the last train. we gave up walking after 1 station, the sun is scorching hot. we went back hotel to put our cam n bags to save the trouble of being stop frm entering the stadium.

still got some time, about 5pm, we went to hardrock. sharon jie is so obsessed wft her long lost guitar keychain frm osaka. but KL doesnt sell it. just grab 1 unqiue n headed to stadium again. we r totally in a rush. we r afraid we cant get our tix la.

but 1 thing special is that, they let us in at 6+ to be seated. n wat, we waited till 8.30pm. watching the repeated B&L adverstisment. the is my 1st time experiencing the outdoor atmosphere. there is a mini firewrks which cant be seen in indoor. anyway, i had no regrets going there. we felt lost after the concert. HUH... finish already ar. RM353 gone. so fast. tml going hme. lolx.

i cant bear to part wft the hotel room. the blanket is so comfortable. we can slide the door to seperate ourself frm the "living room". oh My...

2007-11-27T16:42:00.000+08:00

for the 1 time, i spent my weekend at hme. normally i wont be hme. had movie! "ENCHANTED" so funny! so fairytale. i love it. lolx. the movie went on dutch inlcuding dinner. weird though. but shld draw a clear line.

so far so gd. doing junior wrk on mon. taking diet n sending it. haha. the SSN was saying, 'so seldom NYP student will do PCA wrk". lol. i love doin it man. so easy. time passes fast too. for once i followed a PCA. buddy wft the SN very sian la. always doing their thing n abit hack care unless u asked! smre that SN on shift i don like. so i request to do junior. i m sick of offing plug. like whole day asking mi to off plug! 1 day at least can off 4 plugs. much mre confidence gain after all!

argh.... i m in so much thoughts. think whether to sign bond or rather employment-ship. since they r in nid of nurses. i m nt sure if i cld get a job after i graduate. coz i heard that each hosp, they have a quota to recruit freshly graduates. just hesitating.......... for don noe wat shit reasons. probably after my night duities next week, i can make my decision. my parents supports the idea. but........... haiz!!!!!!

2007-11-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

2day not too bad. set up 1 drip n prime in on the infusion pump. i did 1 dumb thing. pssing report thru the recorder! their style is passing thru recording. n my EN got to stop the tape coz i had a long pause. figuring wat they r writting. i tot i was suppose to pass 1 case.. ended up passing 3 cubicle. haha! fun! at 1st was nervous but after tat i got hold of it! the nite staff will hear it in the staff lounge instead of outside the cubicle.

i heard my voice.. eee... so weird, uncomfortable. like an idiot! i heard we r nt allowed to give IV injection, or mayb any other injections. this is to protect us!!! izzit???

hw come the lecturer doesnt come dwn to c the students! ass hole man! anyway gd oso la. don come n disturb mi!

2007-11-13T18:23:00.000+08:00

when i reported to wrk, i was lost. don noe wat to do. u noe wat... they pass report thru recorder! normally, nurses will stand outside the cubicle rite... but they r diff.. sitting in the staff room n listen to the recorder. so weird la. hard to catch coz i cant visualise the pt n the bed! hate it! lucky this kind soul EN help mi. instruct mi to do things rather den standing like a idiot! ya, i m doing yr1 job except for bed making n sponging.

stupid sister wasnt there at wrk. left in the jungle once again! well, i think the hosp doesnt give orientation to students. i went to another ward n happen to ask 1 of our students. they do nt haf a assigned preceptor. well, all thks to NYP for nt emaillng our scedule to them, tats y sis cldnt assigned a preceptor for us to follow. anyway, i trying to get use to the ward layout.

they r asking for employment! they need nurses there! frens... can consider wrking there!

2007-11-12T16:41:00.000+08:00

will u col it a torture or lucky to be posted to a private sector?

my 1st day was shit! totally left out alone in the jungle. no orientation to the enviroment! where is the store room? hw to i empty the bedpan? where can i find the para chart? all tis are stranger to mi. the IMR especially! doc r suppose to write the med if needed to b given STAT but they wrote it in the doc notes....... OM!!! den hw can i do the 5 rights?

i need to start learning frm the begining ok! i rather be posted in ttsh! where everything is familar n easily access!!! n wat, 1 shift onli have 2 SN to like 30 pts if full hse... n ya, tat is the busiest ward in the hosp! manpower??? lack of tat! i don c any EN 2day or PCA??

cafe?? where is it?? jocelyn was kind enuff to tell mi where i can get my food. staff canteen!!! i gt my coupon but hw to order.... no menu stated on the the board. we r suppose to go near n look wat they r cooking! kaoz! i saw rice n pointed at it. n it was vegetarian. wao lao!!! brown rice n veg..... i ate it wft chilli sauce or esle i wont be able to swallow!

tat is this 3 gers.. don noe frm where. heard to be frm agency. F them, don u noe hw to ans the col bell? just happily sitting on the chair n toking in tamil! scram off! i don noe hw long i will be facing them.

GOD!!!! i need ur help!!! i nid strength n a leader to guide mi!!!!

2007-11-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

opportuntity r given to u. but u rejected it. nw u asking for 1 mre chance... will it be given to u?

2007-11-10T00:33:00.000+08:00

i had finally ended our ED posting. we r dying to end it since mon. but 2day, we kinda feel sad to seperate frm each other nt becoz of of the department... this will b the last posting tat we will be 2gather. doing things 2gather! next wk onwards, i will b posted esle where n nana, suba n lynna will be in different ward."MAYBE"! we reali had a gd chat during our break. remebering the nonsense we had done.

recalling 2 years back.....

JOKE no1:
suba was suppose to translate to tamil but ended up speaking eng to the balangdesh. n him pronouncing numbers wft the lang!

JOKE no2:
being posted to a b1 ward. slacking at the nurses' counter n was caught by sister. farhan was taking suba BP... n told sister tat suba wasnt feeling well. craps! our lecturer knew about this n came toking privately to each of us.

JOKE no3:
joy mistaken the pantry access button as the door to the staff room! this created a greatest joke whenever we went back to ttsh for posting.

JOKE no4:
the sling bra tat joy came out the toilet! suppose to be halter neck but ended up a sling bra. 1 side is higher den the other.

JOKE no5:
jovell n mi carry the trolley instead of wheeling it! prevent frm noise pollution. we loved acting like clowns!

JOKE no6:
i spoke eng to this grp of ppl... but they cldnt understand mi... likewise, vell went to speak to them, yet they understood her.. just becoz she had some of their accent!

(many many mre....)

last day of ED posting...

JOKE no1:
suba was so excited to test urine. the SN was surprised to c her enuth face. but wat came to my mind was she wanted to taste it mre den testing it!!!!! hahaa!

JOKE no2:
SN asked suba to press the cancel button but she mistaken it as a touch screen! the SN was saying "aiyo, we nt so high tech yt, tat is nt a touch screen".

JOKE no3:
student: the pt needed 6pac of blood...
lecturer: where do they get the blood?(with a very serious look)
student: frm the blood bank.(with a F look)
..........suba n mi was like. wat the F!!! lecturer doesnt noe where they got the blood. we nearly burst out in laughter. she was asking stupid qns. where to get the blood??? dumb!

we are posted to triage area. practically, there was nt much things to be done except for ECG n urine specimen. suba n mi do it 2gather. even for a simple urine test, 2 of us will stick 2gather n go into the room to wait for the results. 2 of us will give the files to the doc. going toilet 2gather. bringing pt into obs bay. going break 2gather regardless whether we r allowed too!

everything everything leading to independent! i will missed it!

2007-11-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

i was lost on the 1st day of my ED posting. went in by the wrong door. n i was so giddy when i saw so many beds all ard. walk my way thru asking where is the staff lounge. i hate the settings. nt use perhaps! lucky i was posted to the children emergency 2day. let mi settle dwn 1st! heard tat P2 is so busy tat their time passes fast. for mi, is the other way round. though there is cases flowing in, but i stood there to observe. cant hands on othere den BP taking. exactly like poly clinic posting.

saw RTA. the boy was hit but still conscious. MIND u.. hit by a "L" plate. so funny to hear tat.

the hosp is damm far... my mum din wan to pick mi up. she say bishan was nearer for her. i agree the place is far. n lucky got frens wft mi oresle i will be lost in jurong east or west. don even noe. just followed them n took the train to bishan. 44mins ride. damm it! anyway, i left wft 3days! haha!

2ml will be a better day. don noe which area i will be posted. din take a look at the scedule!

2007-11-04T22:45:00.000+08:00

SAT!
went to baker's INc at paragon for lunch... the pasta tastes gd. ham n bacon pizza is better den the seafood pizza. the crust is diff, like polar curry puff base. waffle was yum yum! but doesnt worth paying the price for tat small portion. ard 5+ left mi n 2 aunties walking ard wisma den taka... i wan to buy black shoes. but heard germs bought the kappa for $20, i din wann buy it at $30. waiting for the price to drop. though i had 1 sports shoes nw, but like doesnt matach the uniform leh. like some moron!

TODAY!
movies! "game plan" by the rock. omg! is so touching n funny. he is so charming wft tat big muscular body! too huge though but looks gd! haha! 1st time watchin at vivo city. i realise i din noe hw to drive there. check the directory n roughly get my way there. BUT, ended parking at harbour front instead of vivo. had dinner at the food republic. so crowded!

totally nt prepare for ED. m i suppose to read up or wat? cant be bothered! just waiting for PH on thur!

2007-11-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

my scedule for PRCP are out! having nite duty 1 month later frm start of PRCP. starting for 2 nites den 3 nites subsequently... damm scared la.. thought onli some will get! ended up... all getting izzit! i m opposite shift wft 1 ger in grp 26.... don noe who! lucky, it did nt clash wft my S.H.E concert in KL... hahahaha!!! n tat ward onli have 2 students!

2007-11-02T20:36:00.000+08:00

our attactment for OT posting has finally ended... 5 days was quick. we had fun of course. eating their biscuits provided. everyday changing mask, caps n laughing at suba short dress! thru this posting, i saw opts which i will nv get a chance to c if i nt intending to wrk in theatre! 5days, we r posted differently... to CSSD, like some factory worker! any1 would nv believe we r student nurse. hahaha!

2007-10-30T19:51:00.000+08:00

i went to observe 4 opts! 2 excision of ankle lump, 1 total hyterectomy n the remval of stone in bladder.

most painful for them was the removal of stone on a male. they insert a metal tubing, in it, a wire is inserted... den the metal tubing is like a camera, it can view n c where the stone is lying ard. frm the tv, the stone is big, the doc grab hole of it using the wrire n brought it out. during the period, the stone drop half way, the doc had to reinsert the tubing n grab it out thru the urethral hole. IMAGINE!!! thought he is unconscious, but when he wakes up!!! ER!!!! can feel the pain!!! ARGH!!! cant imagine!

hyterectomy was similar to the cassearn i saw ytd. the cuting of the skin... but this time, the doc had to remove her uterus(womb). n it was quite a long procedure i saw 2day. took abt 1h15mins. sew layer by layer. uterus was small compare to a woman to had just delivered!

cant wait for this posting to be over... i cant imagine having lunch for this wk... i m going to b starved. the food is so.... i rather prefer Food court n nt a cafe! everyday wearing the cap for 8hrs shift. so uncomfortable wearing a mask! all the nurses wears the mask... when they removed it, i cldnt recognise hu is hu...

2007-10-29T19:20:00.000+08:00

yA! 2day, suba, nana n liyana was shock to c mi. they cldnt recognize mi frm far. a new look la. my mum was so pleased wft my hair cut n my dad finally noticed my hair changed! nanny oso like it. like a old mi i used to b! lolx.

enjoyments r over. i had a fun weekend. everyday out frm afternoon till nite. wat a waste, i cant go to HK. clashes wft my attachment. anyway, SHE concert in malaysia is confirmed. going regardless of attachment or nt. i m going to take MC!

attachment had just begun. OT posting this wk. 2day is recovery area... vitals signs 1 after another. lunch was pathetic. 2 scoop of weep potatoe, 4 small carrots, 1 broccoli & 1 miserable chicken. n it is so bloody in it. it worth $1.50. it is troublesome to change into uniform, so we followed the staff n ordered frm the 'ah ma'. she will delievered it to us. so we whole day wearing cap n gown! dumb!

saw a cassearn(don noe the spelliNg)... i immediatly thought hw great is my mum. the pain she was suffering, carrying mi for 36weeks. so wonderful. but the procedure was disgusting....

she cut opened the lower abd, slice a line, use a smething to pick ur the skin n slowly sliced it open... den she asked her assisstant, "did u have ur lunch 2day?". they both use thier strength n stretched the tummy open. i mean STENGTH.... yucks! use their hands n dig open, finding for the womb, cut it layer after another n found TARGET! BABY!!! slowly pushing the baby, saw the head, pull out the baby grabbing by the head! DONE!

bring OUT the womb n stitch it!!!! mind u... is bring OUT!!!! n den stuff it into the abdominal again. do another layer to the don noe wat u col...(bio nt pro) n finally stitch the skin.

wondering y she??? there is a male doc.. or i shld say doc in charge of this lady. he din particpate onli for the pushing of the baby n intubation! i oso having question marks all over... the lady who did the procedure seems to be just a nurse! n yt so pro!!!! m i wrong?

TING's BIRTHDAY

2007-10-24T17:38:00.000+08:00

6oct- just receive the pic frm joy!

after our exams ended, tats when we met up. vell's came back frm 1 month aust trip, brought back the accent. OMG! she was communicating wft us. we laughed at her each time she opened her mouth. just so bitchy! ting's bf was communicating wft her, imitating the way she speaks. just so funny! she just wants to irritate us.

we had the celebration in WARAKU de pasta! the place is damm freaking hot. though is air-con but we suspect they din pay the PUB bill. 1 pathetic fan facing germs direction for us. imagine!!! somre i m nt use to this hot weather after coming back frm japan's trip.

as usual, we crapped, toking about vell's happening in aust, attachment! the food was ok. small portion! but just nice for mi! every1 having diff "cakes" for bdae. 6inch subway, cookies, nw dounuts. weird huh! special i wld say tat!

after lunch, we had drinks at coffee club. ice-cream is all we NEED! followed by photo- taking. Uncle was the cam man! helping us wft all the pic! haha!

2007-10-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

felt so unfair... though "life is nv fair". we know hw to do everything in the store, except for counting money n apart for opening the can of olives! practically, everything we r skillful. yet she can paid the same as us. she only wrks on sat. damm it. on the fit of anger, i just don wan to wrk. forgo $ n want my pride. smre she din ask for pay rise, n we asked for it.

is everything going to end like this?

the start was memorable...

but i put it to an end!

n now i want to have a begining,

will u give mi once again?

genting trip

2007-10-20T00:20:00.000+08:00

got back frm genting on thur 18oct. this trip was fun. we had 2 nites free stay in genting. 1st nite, went to watch resident evil. 5RM movie tix. don noe wheather is a trend for them to tok loudly in the cinema. so inconsiderate. practically conversing thru out the movie. some violent n frightening scene.... scare unty linda... funny xia.

2nd day, we went dwn to KL to shop. YJ noe the place so he brought us dwn to shop. kinda rush. but i manage to browse thru times squ. alot of shops! we had big feast for lunch. had the 2 bowls of frog wine soup or pig wine soup.. anyway, is wine. i din drink it. dint like the taste. but this drink is for confinment women. wanton noodles.. big bowl. n curry veg. yummy!!! we ta bao 1/2 kg of duck n some char siew, 2 pac of hor fun back to genting for supper. genting food r ex, somre nt tasty! back to hotel, went for foot massage... 48Rm. i noe is ex but my foot hurts.

3rd day, left room early to do last min shopping in genting. had Marry brown for breakfast. something different. anyway, my mum gave mi 400RM.. i spent everything. she still remind n warn mi nt to buy rubbish! i told her "wat is rubbish to u is nt rubbish to mi" lolx...

starting wrk soon!!!

2007-10-20T00:17:00.000+08:00

2007-10-20T00:09:00.000+08:00

6 days n 5 nights

2007-10-04T21:05:00.000+08:00

japan trip was supposed to be 7 days..

day 1:
took 0110 SQ flight to Osaka, kansai airport. i slpt thru out. onli ate supper n miss breakfast in the plane. lucky i din eat coz i would have vomited.

day2:
landed ard 8+. kansai airport is damm freaking hot. i think they wanted to save electricity. i expected to be COOL! we met our tour guide. wow!! she is pretty for her age la. anyway, she brought us up to our bus. briefing starts! we went to universal studio. so tiring. u cant imagine. i din reali enjoy myself there. bought nth even. hello kitty is nice but i don like. there is so many ppl crowding the cartoon character once they r out. i don even have the chance to take a photo. sian! nth much there! we were out of tat place at 4pm n headed to Osaka- shinasaibashi for dinner as well as shopping. well, i tot i was going to enjoy. but the stuff there r ex. shoes r nt worth to buy! coz it get be gotten in s'pore. n it is autumn. clothings r all long sleeves! back to hotel!!! we bought grapes to eat. this is different. there is wine taste! cool right!

osaka- shinanaibashi

osaka castle

me, chlorin, baby tris

day 3:
frm osaka went dwn to toyohashi. we went to visit temple, deer park. the deers r walking freely la. damm scared! it was raining. we went back to hotel n had a chit chat session. toking about our journey for the next day. is was damm fun la. all the aunties was toking n they drank jap wine n was toking nonsense. lol!!!

day 4:
took the bullet train frm toyohashi to hammamatsu. mt fuji we went. haha. resembles like genting. i mean the roads. had ear block. hate it! is was freaking cold up there. but SHIOK. i wrote post card to my dad n mum. hehe. cheap la. tats y i send! 2day just spend our time in the bus. we went to 2 places for sight seeing n went back to hotel. is was like onli 7pm Sin time. of coz nt going to slp. we waited for 10+ den go for hot spring. hehe. naked to go in. pai seh xia. we tot no1 will enter.. din realise 2 ladies frm our tour grp came in... SHIT LA!! i don dare to face them. knowing myself is nt well developed as mine! hehe! damm relax after the hot spring. went up to change n came dwn for a walk. this is nt a hotel, mre like a inn n there is no other tour grp. onli US.. 19 of us!

day 5:
going to visit another temple n say bye to hammamatsu. going to tokoyo city. well, i tot i can shop. but the things r nt suitable. time is so rush. tour grp u noe!! got a certain time to mit. 1 hr to shop the lane is nt enuff. just browse!

day 6:
fast hor... 6th day already. bought nth much! i left wft 300+.. i brought 500+! disneyland! my fav... after this, we heading to another town. so tat all in tokoyo! 1 day!!! u think enuff! disneyland was disappointing. it is big compare to hk. but hk is mre organised. if u wan to take a photo wft a character, must Q... but in japan.. all rushing! sianz! we played a few games la.. all must Q n is long Q.. sianz again! i wanted to get the chip n dale popcorn container... wtf.. when we walked, there is none selling. it is sold out. sianz triple. short day long nite. abt 5, the sky is getting darker. we skip thru toontown n headed to play the cars... hehe.. tat was fun. driving the car dwn the track. baby tris drove her own while her mum step on the paddle. hehe! she kept looking back to c us... so cute! we watched the parade. is doesnt interest mi coz i cant get my chip n dale!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we had chinese dinner n back to hotel off tokoyo. it is at narita!

day 7:
took our breakfast n prepared to leave to spore. n nw i m here blogging! but at least i took a pic wft the tour guide.

the tour guide is a singaporean but stayed in japan for 10 over yrs. she doesnt look like a mother of a 15 yr old kid. she can tok for 3hrs w/o stopping n repeating. although i smetimes nt interested in her toking, i would admire her. just look so pleasing to admire la! lolx. she damm nice la.

overall, this trip is mre to sight seeing. every nite we r moving hotels n city. most sian thing is i onli spend 1 nite in tokoyo. din reali shop n leave the city already. wat to do, tour grp is like this. but we enjoyed ourself toking n walking 2gather as a grp. hehe!

2007-09-28T12:40:00.001+08:00

LIfe is so unpredictable. 1 moment he is there toking to u, the other moment u heard he is dead! the last time, i had a gd chat wft him. toking to mi about my future, wat i want to do n hpe to be like his wife who used to be a matron! the last time i saw him during great grandma wake! he is grand-uncle. though we mit evry once a yr but that was the 1st time i had a gd chat wft him!

ah ma is so scare. every1 is leaving. i m scare too... heart attack!!! so whenever complain of chest pain, better go for check up!

my packing is almost done. raining in japan! i afraid it will be cold!!! nt sure whether the clothes r enuff to kip mi warm... bo bian! i got thin skin tat y scare cold! lolx.

everthing is over.

mind is made up.

u will vanished frm my life 4ever!